Futsal,Langkawi Trip..

since some people are complaining abt me blogging in mandrin and they couldn't understand or they needed subs.. so i am doing it in english for this post..

friday morning was awakened by a scream by my mum and i had to fetch her to the china doctor to get her massage. while waiting i had the opportunity to do so.. b4 reaching home.. my phone rang and the ffk woman called me to YC... gosh.. i was so sleepy... at 11.30 cheese was suppose 2 come here and have lunch with me and den movie... in the end.. he was busy entertaining his gf and i cooked my self indo mee for lunch.. went sing K wid reen and her bf, keegan god that dude could sing... and i feel so paiseh.. those songs are like so not suitable for me... listening to a song that brought back some of my memories were really frustrating and making me all emo...

after singing k we went ac for a while.. den proceeded to futsal.. ahh.. i cant play for nuts any more.. =( and my leg hurts even its like monday today...

cheese's birthday is comin up.. and same goes to mine.. last year we had it at bkt beruntung .. though it was little people but kinda fun.. this year we thought of going to langkawi.. so who ever wants to go.. please let me know =) you all are invited..

today is wesakday and its also my birthday in the chinese calender.. its 1.15am.. and i have to go to the lodge at 8am.. good nite..

拥有，机会，想法

没拥有过一样东西，人 不能代表什么。。 给了一次机会才能判断一切。。想法当然很重要如果说不能，成功的机会就减少了。。尝试过了的东西才能知道。如果你没拥有过那样东西，你可能很希望拥有它，但拥有过了，可能你不想要了，不过至少拥有过，体验过。。

今天见到了你让我觉得你和他到底是什么会事他的人格还好不过你们好像很表面。不知是不是你是还没了解他或是连他都还没了解你。。我们俩都觉得很奇怪。。。站在朋友的立场，我觉得你真的应该多点了解对方。。

很坦诚地告诉你，我很想拖着你的手和你说：我爱你，但目前的看法应该只是能守护着你。。

快乐，朋友

快乐是怎么得来的？


最近我读了几本书对人生快乐的寻找是差不多每个人都在做，我也不例外。
人越追求快乐就越得不到。当我知道了后想起以前的我竟然每天都在寻找。。。
一个人是否快乐是看自己如何对待自己，自然而然就会得到快乐
当时的我，希望得到快乐什么都做得到。想起来有些恐怖。。 就借这次的机会和你们说声对不起。。
当日无知的我可说只是想寻找自己的快乐而负列了许多人家人，朋友。。
知道了以后，现在对朋友的我会渐渐的改变。希望你们能原谅我。



有几位朋友是我真的要谢谢他们的。。


炜杰，我的好兄弟教会了我很多人生道理和帮助我。。

佩汝，我最要好的朋友，和他分享了许多我的困难她也帮了我很多。。谢谢

她，教会了我真么去防备一个人。。别太信任一个人，有些人知会为了利益而靠近你。。



i reflected alot on my self and the life i am having recently.. didnt know how to express my self in english so i did it in mandrin. updating a few things which are happening recently..

just met up with my high school friends zw and kt few days ago.. missed those good old days in my class... things will just remain as memories and hopefully we will keep in touch.. regarding my trip to taiwan for my further education, i cant apply my visa yet as it only can be issued 3 months before the date of departure.. my estimated date of departure to taiwan will be 1st of september 2008. about the condition of my depression.. its getting better and gaining back confidence in my self and in my life...

well thats all i guess..

后悔

人生中有许多做了令人后悔的事或是没做到而后悔的。


爱情

在我的情况下，对她说我爱你我都没有那个勇气。
记得当日，有一个人对我唱了勇气这首歌，令我感触很深。
我记得有人对我说过爱一个人不一定要拥有她只要她得到他要的快乐，以满足了。
今日的我，却后悔当日没有那个勇气对她说我爱你。


学业

认真地想我到底有没有认真地去读书？没有。。。
确实是很后悔，今年20岁了看见朋友一个一个的毕业了我还在地上镇杂!
虽说我一要到台湾去留学，但我到底是不是要读这一方面的书？
生死学适合我读吗？最近我却发现我尽然对政治赶上了兴趣。
我不能再回头了，这次的决定不需错。


人生

浪费了我的人生。。没好好的利用
我的知识到底在那个水平？如今发现了自己得了优异疹
因为我的童年过得真的每意义。。。 治疗的过程好辛苦，
当要放去人生时，竟然又有新的希望。。人也说过希望越大失望越大！！