長大.. grow up and letting go

是時候讓自己長大...是時候讓自己學習...
是時候讓自己知道很多事情...自己的想法是這樣但是別人不一定認同...
我會告訴別人讓自己開新點，所以我自己也要做到讓自己開心點...
有些時候，有些事情，是不能滿足自己，那就不要對一切的希望太大...
每個人的想法都不同，別人那麽想不代表自己的想法是對的...

life is like a brief candle..
happiness is really important.. i guess its time for me to learn..
let go... let go...
telling my self day by day ... i will grow up to be a better person...
grow up.... grow up....
till the day i meet a better 1....
disappointed... what did i do to deserve all this?

Thanks...

today had a day out.. had a nice long chat with you.. and that really made my day.. thanks alot.. some how i feel you have grown up alot.. not that little sis that i use to know xD... i need to work harder too =) good to see you becoming more matured ... those advices you gave me.. haha.. thanks alot..

you are the best female friend i have too =) really hope we will b friends forever =) sigh i am gonna miss you... 15 more days and i am going back taiwan..

will b going genting with mandy on thursday.. hope reen you will come along =)

愛情是什麽？

什麽是愛情? 什麽是交往？
我已經不知道哪种感覺...已經不知道有個女朋友的感覺...
我們這樣是比朋友多一點點的感情還是一對情侶？
昨天的失望，你和我說的給我感覺是你不在意我們這段感情...
我要的是一個穩定的感情，一個長久的感情...
我今天是在想，我在你心裏的地位到底是什麽？
我不喜歡不肯定的感覺，一時特別喜歡一時好感...
怎麽會那麽嬗變？

好不開心，好希望有人能告訴我到底愛情是因該怎樣的

不好的心情

好事是你回到了臺北...希望你是無傷害的回到...
這次你去哪了因該學了很多事情吧？為你覺得開心
我的擔心，我的關心變成了你的煩惱....你在為什麽煩呢？
今天我們聊天后我得到的感覺是你不在乎與我的感受...我也希望我對這個感覺是錯的....
我不知道要怎麽說所以用英文...
i dont know what you feel about me.. at times you really really care about my feelings.. like for the example that i just gave you, i dont feel you are committed to this relationship.... i really dont understand why you are being so cold to me recently.. i really really hope that you will care about me just a little.. that is what i am asking for ...

今天身體不舒服，再次惡化，好不舒服...好希望我很快會好起來，我不想再這樣下去受苦...
晚安

8月22號

突然為我女朋友覺得很驕傲...她去儅義工了=)
今天生活好充實，現在2點了不過才回到傢...
時間越來越靠近我回去臺灣的日子，好想好想馬上能見到你...
在這裡為你祈禱，你去哪裏沒傷的回來...
今天身體又惡化了..希望也能快點好
想能健康的回去見你...
好希望當天回到就能見到你
晚安

疑問

我在你心裏的地位是什麽？
今天才覺得真正的不開心...
今天和你的視窗玩遊戲，感覺我被抛棄了....
一切是我造出來的嗎？好孤獨，好孤單...
好想好想有一個肯定...
説不定一個剛認識的人都比我重要..

我失去了？

我要的感情....

我想要一個
穩定的感情
兩方面肯付出的感情
不自私的感情
快樂的感情
健康的感情
這些是我要的感情，但是很多原因中我覺得我們沒辦法溝通....
這段感情我們一起努力過才會有今天，但是現在我得到的感覺是這樣我不知道要怎麽告訴你...
我真的那麽煩嗎？給你帶來了很多煩惱嗎？

i always know that relationship is a 2 way thing.. sigh some how.. its a 1 way thing again now.. am so frustrated.. i am home in malaysia.. what did i do to deserve to be so unhappy back here?

生活=)

新的一天新的開始，自己要讓自己開心...
自己不讓自己開心沒有人能幫自己...
今天和你聊了很多，感覺自己不因該再讓自己不開心...謝謝你
可能從今天開始所有的事情都有新的看法，新的開始...
聽到一首歌，其實聼了很多次，有句話很對..你愛的人不是愛你的人...
今天是第一天的開始，接下來PARTY PARTY PARTY!!!!

Frustration

really really frustrated recently.. somehow i feel so lost.. no idea why.. besides feeling lost, and also feeling moody.. sigh.. whats going on with me?

been doing some thinking these few days and yea i think its some time to change for the better.. wasted 21 years of my life and i should actually start doing something about it... 1 bad thing is i don't have the health to let me push it beyond the limit..

feeling sick of everything, sigh.. and getting the love life that i didn't picture it to be this way... loosing faith in it.. just hoping that it wont be ended.. i am still hanging in there.. how but you? some how i feel that i have lost contact with your world.. please.. let me into it..

心理的疑問

一切解決了嗎？
最近感覺真的不是很好，你的想法呢？
好想好想知道你在干嘛，好想好想再次投入你的世界裏...

對不起對不起

對不起自己不夠的堅持沒做到需要做的東西...
這樣是無意中的傷害你....也是很嚴重的傷害你....
現在我能做的只是說對不起，多一個月我會回去了...
希望我有機會對你彌補，給我一次的機會完完全全去照顧你...
一時的快樂可能會造成很多的痛苦，很多的不開心...
好擔心好擔心
你的狀況，我不在你身邊...
對不起對不起
傷害你那麽嚴重...
希望你沒事我怎樣都可以，只希望你沒什麽大礙
好好照顧自己，堅持多一個月，我就回去了
彌補不再你身邊的一個月，和對你的一切切傷害...
會改變自己讓自己能變成你的依賴....
一個承諾，我會是你想見到的我....相信我

時間

我知道時間無多，但是要一個人改變不是一兩天的時間...有反省也需要一點時間...
我不覺得我自私，我真的累了我告訴你，我這樣是自私了嗎？如果反過來說你不體諒我的累？
朽木不可雕這句話也出來形容我了...
我覺得我們根本就是有溝通的問題...那也因該是我表達能力差和我理解能力低
好不開心，真的很無奈，生氣又不是，天啊好煩...


世界上最幸福的一件事情...就是..你所愛的人..正好也愛著你
這句話我認同，不過開始到現在我只有一次那麽多人爲這個可以用在我們身上..也就是我給你那個心的那天....怎麽感覺事情都在我們沒見面的時候發生比較多...

steps are taken so your life would move on.. to the better and not for the worse.. separation of a distance of 4000KM is just very very far.. its just 4 more weeks.. bare with me.. i beg you.. i really cant live with 4 more weeks of arguments..

a single thought that came into my mind.. a friend told me people take thing for granted if they come easy.. sigh.. somehow i think this is actually happening.. and i cant do anything besides working harder to pull us back together.. am really frustrated.. the more it goes the more i think that only a single party is giving in to this relationship..

time and place is the factor, my fear is loosing her.. please give me some time...

好累

很多很多的不開心
很多很多的話
好想好想我現在在臺灣
到底你心裏是怎麽想
我覺得很無奈，好不開心...

today had a bad news.. i had actually injured my self during the last motor accident.. and i need to go for some exercise and have some medication.. really really sad.. i need a healthy body.. who will care? only my self..

after being busy the whole day with a few friends from lodge.. i am eager to get home so that i have some time to accompany you.. thought that i would have a little chat with you before i go to bed despite i have to wake up 8am tomorrow. why you just cant listen to what i have to say? what you have to be so judgmental.. i am really really tired..

不知道該怎麽辦生氣？還是覺得完全都是我的錯？
我真的毫無方向，很努力的和自己說那個夢是假的，結果一天天看到的結果就是夢中的結局
好害怕..誰明白？

感覺

感覺....
我們的距離越來越遠
你覺得我們的感情不夠穩定？
我們之間是不是有了什麽問題？
我們需要好好溝通一下，很需要了解你的想法..
離開你身邊一個星期，覺得疏遠了很多

期待，等待

離開你好幾天了，好想念好想念
今天8月3日，還有一個月12天我才返回臺灣
是不是那一天能夠見到你？
好期待見到你的日子很快到..
想念你的一切，很想給你一個擁抱
和你說我們不在分開好嗎？