Taiwan & Depression

once again ive been to the doctor.. mild depression is what he said.. sigh... i guess thats me? he said i went to taiwan this trip has made my depression improved a little.. i guess so... too many things here disappointed me.. friends, family.. i really hope i could leave home and.. yup i will be quite soon...

my application to taiwan's university is in the progress and i planned to go to nan hua university.. both my heng dai are there and we kinda have the same interest. i havent chose what am i going to study yet but hopefully this will be the last choice i have to make in my studies.. business management or life and death studies... i am interested in both of them..

generally tuition fees in taiwan are way cheaper den here .. besides that i have a chance to leave home without being nagged and all.. environment of that uni is kinda good.. loved it.. and the best part.. i get to organize camp for kids there... every 3 months i have 1 chance.. well thats the time i really enjoy.. being a kid again, not bothering how others think and how crazy we could be... thinking about this i miss you suria... you are the only 1 that could play wid me till so gila.. dunno de ppl think we are 5 years old.. lol

have been staying home for 3 days.. and feeling better.. at least i don't get all depressed by getting last min cancellation of plans.. this time b4 i leave i must really meet a few people that i promised to meet the last time.. hopefully ill have the chance larh..

爱一个人是那么的痛苦，
我没有勇气对你说一声我爱你，
但我给了自己少少的勇气稍微暗示了你，
为什么你会给我不相信回音？
我真的不知道你是如何想的。。
在我心目中只有一个大问号和失望。。。
他们对我说希望越大，失望越大。。
难道你真的不止的我去爱你吗？



给你的话。。。希望你懂你是谁。。

these words has been stucked in my heart and brain for some time... some 1 please give me the guts to say i love you to her.. should i say i am a coward?? i used to say i dont hope the person would love me back.. but this time.. no idea why.. i have that hope in mind..

Home but being emoed..

finally i came home after 23 days in taiwan.. i slept in the airport from 2am-9am.. dam tired.. and woke up between sleeps to make sure my passport was still with me.. reached KL at abt 3.30pm in the afternoon and went for family dinner at night.. that was about it...

on monday.. we went to 1u for movie.. reached there early.. and temaned reen to buy her stuffs.. no idea why people complaining the clothes will stretch if you wash it.. ish.. not 2 say you gonna tarik the shirt 99 rite... suppose to go for dinner with cheryl but plans was cancelled.. i haven woke up this early for a long time to go to college.. i reached college at about 7.50am today and met a few people.. wow college changed alot.. kinda missed it but.. the time has come lar.. i have to go... plans for today was kinda messed up but manage to go through the day peacefully but being emoed.. not only me.. but 3 of us.. because of the same reason..

our plans was going to sunway lagoon tomorrow... which was decided on monday night.. sigh.. those last min people.. sigh... and again.. plans cancelled.. aih.. guess i am fated just to rest for a while?? being ffked/lied and what else could come? well b4 people call me a bitch i shall stop here... enough for bitching.. nitez people..

Leaving Taiwan

finally.. the last day came... going home to my home sweet home.. i missed my bed.. lol anywayz.. did some shopping today.. and i really need to b on diet as soon as i reach home.. i gained 5 KG... OMG>... k.. k... b4 ppl start ejek me i shall stop here.. owh owh.. i bought 4 jackets for about RM250.. worth buying.. original and branded.. fuh.. so satisfied.. the original price is 1 for 2600

leaving this place.. i shall upload details and pics to you people.. have to go to the airport now.. tata

Living the Monk Life...

understanding the life as a monk... as they say... sleep early wake up early , you will b healthy... and yea... we have to sleep 9pm everyday and wake up 4am ... really not enough sleep... while this 2 days i have been driving up and down to taichung... it is about an hour from my current place.. here is how i spent my time the last few days

tuesday
was a freakin hot day though it is winter here... it was kiddo camp's day... there were abt 40 of them and god... it was hell a mess... try being chased by 20++ kids.. wanting you to play with them.. and all you can do is.. yes ... okok... arrgh.... 20 people... few games.. so who are you gonna play with first?? that nite we had BBQ for dinner... didnt have time to eat.. and bbq started at 5.30pm.. the sky was already dark that time.. i only had my dinner 9.30pm after the kids went to bed.. and at nite it was kinda cold.. but with the fire there... it was warm...

wed
2nd day of kiddos camp... totally bored.. and being chased around as usual... and yea.. i tot of those kids look like sum 1.. just that she dont chase people around...kiddo brain =) the camp finished at 3.30pm and after that i had to set up the stage where the kiddo's will be performing during CNY... hard job.... it was over at abt 11pm and i went to bed..

thurs
woke up at 5.30 did the usuals.. wash my clothes.. and i drove to taichung to take vegetables.. the direction are totally different.. and kinda scary... but i came back safely.. i realize sumthing..l. price on food products are hell expensive.. but clothes are cheap