rainy day

it has been raining here for few days .. starting to hate the weather here.. 20-26 degrees daily but wind is very strong which makes the weather here cold.. thats about the weather part.. last friday i went to the doctor and guess what, i am sick.. have problem with my back brain, liver, stomach, kidney, lungs and 胃... i hate eating medicine but what the heck.. i have to.. don't want to suffer that much.. and these few days suffering because of my nose.. nose blocked== sigh

realized something, somehow i am just affraid to face her.. i don't know why... it is just a feeling. a few possiblilities which are because of my housemate which actually spoilt my immage infront of her and/or 過渡的擔心和疼愛. no idea why.... she told me something recently which is 你太幼稚了== sigh.. am i that immatured?regarding this, a friend came to visit my place yesterday and she said that a guy which is going after her is so childish.. but her friend said he is not, but he only is when he is infront of you. this made me think is it because guys who are really really serious about a r/s and really care too much about the girl will actually let the girl think that this dude thinks that she is a kid and his actions are really childish? any 1 please enlighten me =(

today is monday and class is starting at 10am and its like 1.15am here .. i cant sleep.. thinking too much i guess.. i need my life back.. sigh.. really really do need it back.. well thats all..