Time Flies

unmeaning full life is a total waste of time. being bored at home for this few days. hate my daily routine, nothing much special! being bored, being all emo is all i do...

songs popping up in my mind;
1: Kenangan Terindah
2. 勇氣
3. 美麗女人
4. 傻瓜
5. Love You

Hopefully these type of life would just end this moment and have something meaningful to do.


About you, every moment is just so hard to pass without you. Controlled and controlled but in the end i gave up. I am poor in talking. No idea why but i have to admit i don't have this problem during high school days. wonder whats bugging me in my mind. All i just hope is you to be beside me at all times. Only thinking but i doubt its possible.

Thats all for now..

This way...

這個決定早就因該作了，不用浪費那麽多的時間，金錢和心力..那麽對待你不過在你心裏我可能只是一個路過的人完全不重要....昨晚問了你一個問題讓我很失望.. 你給我的答案讓我覺得我真的很笨...希望我這次是做到而不是說說而已... 説不定這一切都會是一個完美的結局....


things should be better this way i guess or it should be this way from the beginning? counting the days i left home and what i have done here. what was my initial aim coming here? graduate in 3 and 1/2 years in the end i wasted 1 year here.. decisions has been made hopefully changing for the better. That's about my study area.

My love life is kinda leading me to a frustration form. frustrated with my self for not working hard enough, not paying enough attention, looking at some unnecessary areas of the relationship. as for now is that word F-R-I-E-N-D in your dictionary? or it's just some other lame senior junior shit? had always been very sensitive with that word. always have this shit problem.


life here in taiwan is like so god damn boring.. my daily routines are like waking up between 10-12pm and then clean up the front yard of the house, getting back in front of my computer , starting to read blogs that i left out the night before, chat with some people and have 1 meal a day. sometimes not even a meal. about 9pm feed the dogs at home, start gaming after that and sleep between 2.30am-5am.. what a boring life right? and i know i am wasting my time.. don't lecture me about that.

giving my self a target. by next week i would make a decision wheter to go back to m'sia anot this holiday. it all depends on 1 person... sigh i don't know what to do anymore. 3 plans;
Plan 1)
dont go back at all, stay here and just continue with my current boring life still uni reopens

Plan 2)
go back right after the uni exams end. which is 28th of june and come back to taiwan on 25th of september.

Plan 3)
Depart taiwan somewhere early aug and come back before uni reopens..


people out there reading this give me some ideas =) which plan should i stick with? absondminded..

time for bed nitez

謝謝正妹..

thanks leng lui sis.. for giving me all the support i need... giving me all the 勇氣that i need in order to make this decision. about the previous post i think i got an idea on what things are happening. maybe she is thinking the way you told me as i thought of that before also. hopefully that's the fact i shall give it a try. if it does not work at least i have tried and worked hard for it. again Thanks sis..


搬家的時間就距離了2個月決定好了要搬也和他們說了. 不過怎麽我會那麽不開心？感覺會有許多變化？希望這個感覺快點離去也不希望這種事情會發生... 今天又下雨了不知道會下到什麽時候。這是這刻很想很想你在我旁邊給我一個擁抱在和我說聲加油。

一句話...

別人說的話是不是因該聼？還是靠自己的直覺？直覺可能是錯的嗎？

當事人對了她的朋友說了一些話，不知什麽時候的話今天傳來了我的耳邊. 我的直覺不是這樣的，不過她從前的一句話讓我不敢亂想. 怎麽辦？已經兩個人告訴我這件事情了，再加上一個人的奸笑。是怎麽辦？她給我的感覺是不上不下的，到底哪一個才是真確的感覺？

questions questions and questions.. spinning in my mind.. when would i learn how to make a decision firmly and without regrets? where did my guts went? sigh...

life here in taiwan really stinks recently. problems here and there. i really need opinion from few people regarding some stuff which i don't want to state here. kinda a urgent matter to attend to. alot of things to consider including friendship, love, transport, and other stuff... those questions above in mandrin hopefully some 1 could just answer me without asking me who it is.. hate ups and downs in life, when my life could be just a straight line?

雨天+心情=不好

本來以爲友好事情會發生，結果氣在頭上...一切都不順利

你走下車時我真的猶豫要不要打給你還是讓你走。
結果還是真的不捨得你那麽做就把你叫回來。
真的好生氣，爲什麽只爲了我不想告訴你一件事情你就走下車？
無所謂，最後覺得嗯，其實是我的錯因爲我不告訴你，就這樣原諒了你在責怪了自己。
接下來就是你說好了就會打給我，還說了12點之後。我11點。15分就被人罵了問什麽時候回去。
得到的結果就是沒結果的等待，氣人的是你和我說要睡了。
這樣就過了。到了太保還要被人罵個夠好不開心。
在那裏見到了螢火蟲就想到了你，覺得很多事情都很想和你說只是無法開口。
希望我真的有一天有哪個勇氣告訴你我想對你說的東西。


Dear sis, thanks for your support.. but things really didnt go so well.. sigh... how i wish i was back home and you were there to teman me.. really really miss home after what happen yesterday..

勇气

今天是你的生日,祝你生日快樂.很多話在我心裏很想和你說不知道如何和你開口.最後選擇寫在我部咯個裏希望有一天你會看到.

多希望我有哪個勇氣和你說我愛你
多希望我有哪個勇氣和你說聲謝謝

誰可以給我那個勇氣?

終於作了這個決定　別人怎麼說我不理
只要你也一樣的肯定
我願意天涯海角都隨你去　我知道一切不容易
我的心一直溫習說服自己　最怕你忽然說要放棄

愛真的需要勇氣　來面對流言蜚語
只要你一個眼神肯定　我的愛就有意義
我們都需要勇氣　去相信會在一起
人潮擁擠我能感覺你　放在我手心裡　你的真心

如果我的堅強任性　會不小心傷害了你
你能不能溫柔提醒
我雖然心太急　更害怕錯過你

生日快樂郭羽珊

My Fear?

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