This way...

這個決定早就因該作了，不用浪費那麽多的時間，金錢和心力..那麽對待你不過在你心裏我可能只是一個路過的人完全不重要....昨晚問了你一個問題讓我很失望.. 你給我的答案讓我覺得我真的很笨...希望我這次是做到而不是說說而已... 説不定這一切都會是一個完美的結局....


things should be better this way i guess or it should be this way from the beginning? counting the days i left home and what i have done here. what was my initial aim coming here? graduate in 3 and 1/2 years in the end i wasted 1 year here.. decisions has been made hopefully changing for the better. That's about my study area.

My love life is kinda leading me to a frustration form. frustrated with my self for not working hard enough, not paying enough attention, looking at some unnecessary areas of the relationship. as for now is that word F-R-I-E-N-D in your dictionary? or it's just some other lame senior junior shit? had always been very sensitive with that word. always have this shit problem.


life here in taiwan is like so god damn boring.. my daily routines are like waking up between 10-12pm and then clean up the front yard of the house, getting back in front of my computer , starting to read blogs that i left out the night before, chat with some people and have 1 meal a day. sometimes not even a meal. about 9pm feed the dogs at home, start gaming after that and sleep between 2.30am-5am.. what a boring life right? and i know i am wasting my time.. don't lecture me about that.

giving my self a target. by next week i would make a decision wheter to go back to m'sia anot this holiday. it all depends on 1 person... sigh i don't know what to do anymore. 3 plans;
Plan 1)
dont go back at all, stay here and just continue with my current boring life still uni reopens

Plan 2)
go back right after the uni exams end. which is 28th of june and come back to taiwan on 25th of september.

Plan 3)
Depart taiwan somewhere early aug and come back before uni reopens..


people out there reading this give me some ideas =) which plan should i stick with? absondminded..

time for bed nitez