29th april...

my blog is not active anymore... tats all i can say... and... its kinda more like a diary than a blog 2 me.... anywayz... i miss college... holidays just started... and i am bored till hell.. god damn.... lets see... friday... i went to cineleisure again... and watched ninja turtles... b4 that... the usual banana leaf lunch... lolx... cheap, filling, and good... no doubt... was suppose 2 watch mr bean... but i was still at cheras... and cant make it back in time... sry guys.... after dat... at nite... i went ac and met up wid cheese and jen... and supposingly reen but i kena con ad... in the end... we went yum cha at a mamak near the hotel wid reen... god wei... she is dam hot... i cant recognize her in the beginning... walau eh... i tot wat ... which hot chick suddenly comin 2 my car... ow... so its reen... haha.... smiles... after the short yum cha session... i dropped vishnu home... and flew at LDP 160.... fuck... i knoecked some 1's car... god dam it... as usual... my mood was bad... and i always speed when i am in bad mood... luckily it was not my fault... and now its fixed...

saturday... i went kepong... and get my self a feel needles... omfgbbq... dam pain wei... again... the bluez and the blackz... arrgh... after dat... went have dinner in a aunty's house... and god... the food suck... dunno y they say damn nice... x tau malu meh... as usual... sat nite... in my buddhist centre... aiyo... another relationship problem... my pet sis and my cousin... broke up ad... and god look at them... siao 1... my cousin... suddenly screamed ... and my pet sis suddenly laugh... den cry... walao eh... cant tahan both of them.... den.... after dat... 11++ we had a camp meeting... and we decided to have a camp... only 4 ppl organizing it... sigh... time is limited... and... i found a job agency... which i am gonna call on monday... after dat... yum cha wid sunshine and fei lou... went home and straight fell asleep at 1am...

today... sunday... woke up at 10... god... this is really bad... called reen... asked her wheter she can go out anot... den i dropped my mum off at kepong... went fetched reen and hell i dunno wher i go... turning here and there... in the end... ended up in spicy... and just have a drink... nothing much... today was kinda boring... besides the part yum chaing wid reen lar... but... dnno wat she was talkin about lar...

if i am not mistaken... on friday night... i told reen what i wanted to tell... god... i really feel better after telling her... but... mayb.. she thinks its a joke... aduh... i also dunno how wei... mayb as wat jen say... slow and easy... k lar... i see what i can do ba... all i can say is... i do love her... when i really found my guts to say all these things... hopefully it will turn out well... currently... its not turning out as well as i wanted it to be... tomorrow i will b a part time driver for my mum... hopefully... everything will be fine lar

shopping tour...

today... dunno wat happen suddenly woke up early... and went dim sum... not bad lar the dim sum at ss2... but it aint cheap lar... a bit of D regret.... finished at bout 9... came home and started gaming... till bout 1... den reen + cheese came 2 my house and dunno y my maid... never seen reen b4 but she openned the gate macam she has a ring on her head lar...den we went 1u and met up with jen and brey....... had lunch in wong kok char chan teng... den... god dam it... i was smoking hapily there... and... this bunch of ppl... which are from my buddhist society... arrgh... hopefully i wont kena this sat lar.... prayin hard wei... i really give her za dao wei... still offer me ciggy.... aduh...

god... hell i regretted a bit... and jen... i am gonna bitch about it... blahz... you all... arrgh... shop here and ther... me and cheese also buay tahan... leg also dam pain ad... ended up talkin my problems with cheese in the carpark... and finishin reen's ciggy for her... arrgh.... and NOW... talkin 2 jen about my problems... she helped me... thanks ... hugz... get back 2 D topic... shopping was kinda boring la.... i almost fell asleep while waiting for the 3 gurls... 1 is bad enough... 3 is just worst... not to mention... we took some sticker photos... GOD DAM IT.... ME AND CHEESE HAD TO WAIT FOR 1 HOUR....(ps: jen... here are the bitching you requested...)

i am lost... really... lost.... btw can you ppl plz get it correct on who am i after?? arrgh... plz wei... anywayz... confusion.. how 2 solve my prob?? any idea??? grr... yew choong... the things you give me.. and ask me 2 do... dun make sence... plz give me beta advice....

i really losing my mind... it happened last year.... and its happening now again.... wonder when my head is gonna blow up .... 11.30a.m. dam tired... tml goin college yum cha wid the ppl... and fetch reen 2 college... hopefully i can wake up lar.... dun wan her 2 carry those heavy books... and have 2 take D bus... nitez ppl

lets party...

finally my exams are over... weee.... this sem... i am quite sure i will do well... and... hopefully i DO... i dont wana be another adp drop out wei... com1700- interpersonal communication was quite easy lar... the mcq questions was just a bit tricky... arrgh... b4 exams... we were panicking... i nearly... freaked out... honestly... exam was 3-5... i finished at 3.45... god.... when will i learn to finish using the time given?? really wonder... english was in the morning... started at 9... and ended at 11... but... i went in... wrote 1/2 of the essay in 15 mins... den went 2 slp... LOL... woke up at 9.45... wrote the rest... and went out...

holidays are starting... and... she is leaving 2 aussie... arrgh.... time is flying... and i must work this holiday... havent found a job yet though... hopefully i wont be bored till death... besides... i really hope that... i will have the time to go 2 college and see her at least 1ce a week lar... even at this moment while updating my blog... i ad start missing her... and thinkin of her....

about her... i love her... as i said in my previous posts... i totally lost confidence in my self... and yea... got a good lecture from her good fren... anywayz... thanks wei.... but every thing will take time lar.... does she know?? mayb... but.. she is just not showing it?? today... i wanted to like.. tell her wut eva is needed to be done... but dunno y... i suddenly didnt have the ballz 2 do it... sigh... if i was as keng as YC lar... that fella really godlike wei.... some how i feel that she acted strange.. or was it me??? aiyo... i dunno la... really dunno.... each time i end up thinking of this problem.. ill end up having some sleepless nites problem... and emoin prob...

things she told me... i am jelous about it... god... hell i am... but... i really dunno wat 2 say... all i can say... lets see how things go....

2nd day of exams

Geo 1000.... turned out easier than expected... i guess i could at least get a C for this sub larh... after class went have my breakfast... eaten like no 1's business... subject registration was so god dam mafan... arrgh... CIS and psychology next sem... 7 week sem... how am i gonna survive?? thats the smaller part of prob larh... the real prob is... HOW AM I GONNA PASS MY HOLLIDAYS??

sumthing happened 2day... it was damn lame lar... hell knows why... i am on war with her... arrgh... kenot tahan... i screamed at her... and now... i feel like shit.... deep inside... i am really sorry.... i really didnt mean to lar... but... there is really a limit larh... i seriously hope everything will be fine after today...

cineleisure trip...

well... 2day was some weird day lar... i slept at 3 ytd nite... and... hell knows what time reen smsed me... i din bother 2 look coz i felt that i just slept.... den like just a moment later... reen called me and asked wheter i am fetching her anot... i was like erm... yea... mainwhile wonderin why she call me so early... arrgh... manatau... its 7.15 ad... wtf.... LOL.... instead of goin college... slept 2 D max.... woke up at 10.30 because of my damn neighbour's phone call... and i am RM 150 less richer... god damn... how am i gonna surive with 300 bucks during my 1 and the 1/2 month holls?? any 1 got a job 2 intro 2 me? i seriously need 1...

k... 2 weeks ago... the 3... me reen and cheese went cineleisure... watched 2 "horror" movies... (ps: it was not scary at all till reen screamed and exercised on my arms) we were joined by another 3 today... makes it 3+3=6... jen, jackson and billy zai... omfg... billy i din knoe you were scared also... 2day we watched another so called the messenger which i think was quite ok in the beginning but the ending was kinda lame... everything seems like man made... well... i think they need 2 get a new meaning for horror movies lar... 3 horror movies... 2 extremely lame ( but managed 2 fright reen) and another 1 quite ok.... but still kinda lame because of the ending...

exams... and i am in cinema... movie ended at like 5 and i reached home at about 6... den studied awhile... dinner... den studied till bout 9... suddenly thought i wana watch mr bean tml... so i asked reen lar... 6pm... wtf so dam late... den... continued studyin till bout 11... freakin lazee ad... went dota... and gave a few smses... den crap... den here i am... 1.40am

i found sumthing new... this girl... sigh... apa la... her habbit make ppl wait for her... haha.... dam it... normally i wait for her in the morning when i fetch her 2 college... den 2day... fui yoh... 11am waited till 1pm for her 2 hand up her assignment... during lunch... every 1 finish and waited for her... in the end... never finish food...
dah la tau we waiting... selambe takin pic pulak

stop polluting plz...

going up

talkin crap... smokin... kena caught... T_T

and yea... time 2 slp... 2am... weeee... nitez ppl... and plz visit my blog more often... its gonna die... TT

finally updating

well.. i finally decided to update.... things that i really wish that i can open my mouth to other people but i really dont know how to put it... so i decided to blog it....

recently... i have been listening a song in billy's car... and that song was actually the song where me and my friends kacau a feller when the girl he loves is going overseas... those times were really the memories... 7 ppl... taking a waja from KLIA back 2 PJ... singing this song in the car.... really meaningful lyrics...

你那么爱她，为什么不把她留下.... walao eh... this 1... seriously dam 9 lat... well... this verse... i hope i can do it... but its totally impossible... time is really a factor this time.... but i am really sure of what i want now.... she.... is just a very very very good friend of mine.... when ever i really need help... ill go to her... she will help me... when she is leavin 2 aussie... i honestly dunno whom can i talk 2 about my problems...

2 months more... she will be boarding an aeroplane to aussie... arrgh.... i promissed something special for her bday pressie... i dunno what 2 get for her... honestly... i wan to give her the best memories that i can give her... as i really doubt ill be seeing her anymore... she said she wont b coming back... she is a really good friend 2 me... i dont know how 2 express my self... its like... letting her go will be my biggest regret but she has 2 further her studies...

another thing... i found out that i have totally lost confidence in my self after what happened 2 years ago... and... yea... that really affected me psychologically... no doubt... ever since then i have never started a relationship its just because I'D rather be friends with the person than in the end losing a friend that i actually loved b4... its maybe bcoz i actually put in everything in my last relationship and its being fucked in this way... and after the broke up... she ignored me for a year... till beginning of this year... and started messing up my life.... since she has screwed my life up 2 years ago... y bothering screwing it up again now??

tis girl... i dunno how 2 explain... the feeling is there.... and yes... i do love her.... i am very sure of what i want now... after the reflection i made... my friend... yew choong... giving me all the advice... he said... dont need 2 shy... just let her know... well... i am affraid ill be ignored... get what i mean... being ignored is like living under a well... for the moment... the only thing i can do is... wait... and see....... dont make my moves 2 fast... but also not 2 slow....

my finals is starting on thursday.... theater 1000... i am a certified failure for this sub... i dunno how 2 help my self... but... yea i failed... its a 100% on monday... ill be having geo 1000... which i dont even know how well i did through the whole sem... and the bloody lecturer aint giving any tips for D exam... wed... morning will be english 1050... which i dunno how well i did also.... afternoon will be com 1700... which i got 47/60 a bit screwed up... but... i think i could live with it....

party + sickness...

ermh... lets see... happy bday 2 billy... 19th years old... a bit pityfull larh... on his bday.. kena kick till D ass bengkak and cant walk 2 D car also... haha me and CH carried him... and guess what... he is small sized.. but weight like an elephant!!! shit... dam heavy... nothing much on thurs... just some boring day....

friday... is just D bomb..... went 2 college... skipped my only class... and guess what... Reen played dota wid us... and she killed adam... LMAO... dam funny... haha... whole cc was full of noise... in the end... ALL of us skipped class... and continued dota till 12.... supposed 2 go 2 ac and meet nikki... but den... she was bz larh... so... me + reen + CH went TTDI enjoyin banana leaf rice...

no idea where we took it... all i know its in my car....

we were joined by wayne... and... omg... reen i knoe you can use yer hands 2 eat larh... but den.. a bit of D disgusting rite??? after lunch... we went 2 cineleasure damansara 2 watch movie... initial we were supposed 2 watch mr bean... but den D 2 jokerz wanted 2 watch horror movie... and in the end... we watched 2 movies... dam mou liu rite??? and both the movies were dam lame... arrgh... not even scary... but... i was scared by sum 1 screaming.... i think cheese will agree wid me larh....

after D movie... went home... bath den waited for jeremy at D petrol station... den my neighbour called... he asked me wheter i got anywhere 2 do it anot... i told him that i will call him back... freakin retard fella... he was like... sayin he wana get it done by these weekend... but fuck... he called me at 6.30pm on a friday... where on earth i can get it done for him... WOOT.... went 2 reen's house after dat... and... listened stories by her mum... PS: her mum really dun trust her eh....

billy's house.... 4 cars went there together... AND.... guess wert... there were only 7 people totally... and the best part was all 7 were smokerz... after dinner we went and smoke in D park... and den went back 2 D house.... shit... billy's uncle is a good lecturer... but... those information shud go 2 our parents not us... so just cut D crap...

coke+ JD... omg... dam sweet... buay tahan... was chilling ... smoke + drink... contributing to our shorter life... hahaz... watched some DVD... and i fell asleep at 4.30am... shit... those ppl are crazy... i was so dam dam dam tired... arrgh... you could say ... we were KO'ed... haha... only me and cheese stayed over at billy's house... and... we woke up at 11++ arrgh... my head was so dam heavy... and... i had fever... my nose really dam kacau wei... feel like cutting it off... =P...

my 1st and only pic wid reen...

well... i guess enough of D crapz... hah... presentation on tuesday... confirm fucked... havent done shit... chiaoz ppl