friday....

just another day of my life... woke up... same matter... i ad numb of gettin scold... den... dropped my brotherz 2 school den fetch reen... sry reen... mood wasnt good 2day morning... sowee.... when reached college... same thing... went dota... but... i saw this dude... bgv 91... evo 7... cunt face... i was wanderin a while... who was that... fuck fred.... that cunt face and his dam evo... den billy went and tried his evo... and... he managed it well... and i am a fuckin looser cant even move the car more than 10 CM.... dam malu sial.... well fred is a nice fren i have larh... sat his evo to play dota... and fucking chee hoe and vishnu just owned me.... cunt!!!!!

i lost my fuckin car keys... either in the blue ferarri or... i dropped it... fuckin cibai wei... thanks billy zai.... fetched me home and take my car keys and go back 2 college... you saved my life wei.... den i went ac... meet up with the ppl... and fuck... y that dude has to give us a cock stare?? cunt face... i knoe me and don dam leng zai... got a fuckin prob... just talk it out... dun give some fuckin cock stare... cibai... hate ppl doing that... i dun care how big are you... if you um song... just come and talk things out...

i left ac at 2.45... sry donnie yen... cant let you wait 2 see nikki... sry wei... dropped ghavin back home... which is dam near nikki's house... opposit i guess... den... went mcD... wid reen... i am so stuffed with the 3 large fries... aikz... dam full... i din even have my dinner wei... wats this.... life tend to be this way at times....

something i have learnt today... whom are your real friends and whom are not... i lost my car keys... and... the 1st person i called... was being a fucking bastard... still dare 2 call me as his best fren... cunt... he said he was at ac... dam bz dotain and all... fuck him lah... den... 2nd person i tot of was billy... and he did it... honestly... if i tell my mum... i am gonna kena from all sides lah... and now really praying hard my keyz in hafiz's car....

i have did some thinking recently.. because of all the dam couple wars going on... and FINALLY its coming 2 an end very god dam soon... and i am seriously dam happy about it... sumthing bout my own self... just realized that... every single person has a soft spot in their life... and... including a soft spot for their ex... i guess thats quite true larh.... but the main thing is... since we could be couple b4 why should we go on war?? we still could be friends even if we break up... coupling is just another stage in the communication thing... well... i was dam motivated with the stairs... which is having a up and downs in a relationship... fully agree to it... and.. it actually helped some ppl... so getting straight to the point, when a relationship is over.. its over... even if you had a chance to get back... DONT... arrgh... dun ask me why... but... the same shit mite happen the 2nd time...

finals... 3 weeks and counting... fuck... i am so gonna die... i havent asked my theater lecturer wheter i could resit my mid term... or i am so fucked... other subjects... i guess ill pass... hopefully... arrgh....its 11.50pm... and i am seriously stucked with something in my head... i seriously hope that thing which is stucked in my head could just be released... den i dun have to b so emo bout stuff anymore...

some fucking family i have....

last post i ad bitch bout my brother... and things are just getting worst... well... it has been 3 days... i got scoldin for no reasons from my mum... my brother... fuck... can my brother even respect me?? cunt.... they really dont have a fucking life... i have to follow their god dam time 2 go to school... really dam pissed... life is just really meaningless at most times larh... i dunno what crap am i talkin... just treat that i am breakin my own dam immage... fuck it.... dunno what 2 write here... but just tryin 2 keep stuff alive.... with some useless post

tiredness...

ever felt tired of yer own family?? i guess every 1 does... if i am wrong.. plz let me know... i am the eldest son of the family... and also being known as the 1st person to kena bitch in the family... in simple words... it means that parents tend to expect more from the eldest son/ daughter... kanneh... i was advicing nikki sum time ago... and i am having the same prob... but i still think its standard larh... well... the least i can do is... if i would have children... i will try my best not to make them feel this way...

my brothers....
fucking retard.... they are totally opposite of me... fuckz... they should really get a life... or maybe... i have 2 change my self and adapt to them?? but i feel they are extreamly retard?? lets start off with my youngest brother... 14 this hear... he can scream like a lion/tiger... bla bla bla... during fights... but during reality.. he is a god dam coward.... guess what... he is scared of cats... fuck man.... i feel dam embarassed... each time he sees some animals by the road side... he will just make the whole family tapau home and eat... fuck this... if my mum is not here... ill slap him... i swear.... besides that... he has a similarity with my mum... throwing temper without any reasons at times... its lame larh...
another brother of mine... 16 years old... but he acts like a fucking tai ko or sumthing... kanneh... i actually told him i had a gf... last time and... the 2nd day my parents found out and i got exactly 4 hours of lecture... wont forget that.... my friends were askin me y am i not close to my brothers... its just coz they are really totally different.... infront of people, they will be angelic... i swear... you will think they are like the best brothers you can ever have... the devil will reveal man.. fuck... honestly...
bout me.... 19 this year... some emo dude.... emoin majority of the time... the dif between my brother and me is... i am sorta a middle of extrovert and introvert... both of them are totally introvert.... i think i am a mistake by my parents... and... most of the time wondering how the youngest of the family feels... i wish i had the chance larh.... i dunno my self very well honestly... mayb some of my friends could give me some comments??

today... was just a boring day i had... started the day off by getting lectured by my mum... saying that i have to fetch my brother to school and i have to wait for them... anywayz.. come on larh... if you want me to fetch you to school... at least follow my time la ok... fuck... but no... if i will follow my time... ill get scoldings... god dam it... when cheryl came... everything stopped... she was sorta my saviour larh... hopefully tomorrow everything will be ok... and what a good way to end my day... tml... have 2 fetch the 2 price to school... and fetch them back... now i am finding a god dam reason not to come home for lunch... for the sake of not fetching them... they will make me wait for 30 mins... and they will be enjoying themselves talking/chilling with their friends...

does every 1 have this prob?? or just those people whom think 2 much?? fuck it larh... i am gonna fail my theater ... really not in a god dam mood... its just a spoilt day in my life...

some day WE had....

every 1 has ups and downs in life... well... the best example was today... hell nice way 2 start off our day larh... ( me and cheryl)... actually... i didnt want to drive to college... its coz i nearly drove up a tree ytd... so... i tot it was bad for me to drive today... it was so sweet for cheryl... comin all the way from sg buluh and pick me up to college... and erm... thanks for that... happily SPEEDING off my house... craping bout drifting.... den... after the penang bridge... the only thing that i could remember was she asked me... shud she turn inside now... den i said... overtake the lorry... den... when it was supposed to turn... sorta at a high speed... and she turned the stearing den only she applied the breaks... den the car sorta drifted... den... when it got back into control... it was up the curb... the only thing was in my mind is... call billy.... lmao.. tats y i said billy is my gd fren larh.... so... i herd he tried 2 fly all the way from menjalara to sunway... anywayz... thanks.... honestly... cheryl was dam scared... and i am dam sure she was not in mood for anything today... just that she promised me,don.nikki that we would chill out today... tats y she didnt go home i guess.... i seriously hope it was worth chilling out and she wont think so much larh....

pyramid.... usual place... kim gary... ended up... 4 ppl there... at least we are finally balanced... nikki replacing sean... but well... sean could never be replaced... anywayz... the milo thing was really lousy today... sigh.... i guess... new fella makin it.... he/she suck... finished it... and cheryl was still emoin bout the car and.......... we went patrick hunting... and... it was all sold out.... den we went ice skating... shit... its my 2nd time... and honestly... its fun... and erm cheryl... i hope the car speed didnt scare you... and you are satisfied with the ice speed... i personally enjoyed it alot lar... and thanks for teaching me how to skate... better den sum 1... tryin to make me fall... but in the end she fell her self... and... donnie... i am proud to have my size... AT LEAST.... i can balance my self...

personally... i was wondering when it will be my chance goin skating with my gf or sumthing... i was actually thinking bout stuff when don and nikki was bz.... and cheryl was enjoyin her self... why should i sit on the girl... which i know that i wont have the chance because of our parents?? i think i should actually understand it ad larh... although she keeps saying that how much she hates her boyfriend... and saying that IF... our parents.... sigh... honestly.. a bit fedup listening to that lar... and that god dam bitch... still buggin me... god dam it... kenot tahan D.... i think... if i am gonna meet some 1 suitable... i am seriously... gonna go through the 1/2 of the process that i learnt from my course... interpersonal communication... its 1/2 coz... the other 1/2 is bad stuff... it leads to the breakin up point...

enough of crapz i guess... only thing is... i hope cheryl will cheer up real soon... and... good luck to her presentation and quiz tomorrow... owh.... and for billy... thanks alot....

shitted day...

was emoing as usual... sigh... 2day... got a couple sorta teman me... or shud i say i teman them... hmm... every thing seems well in them... hopefully it will remain lar... i realized sumthing bout me... tat is not a problem... but i made it a problem... and became emo... cant help it though... sigh... anywayz... hopefully ill cut out of it soon lar....

when i found out nothing is wrong with my mum ad.. i was like... fuck this lar... den the sudden thoughts of that emo thing came 2 me... started emoin... den went look for don.. fetched him after his class... went ac... waysted 15-20 mins lookin for a god damn parking... and don was being a sohai... each time i changed gear... he was making that turbo sound.. though i wish it was in my car... we went the cyber cafe... and started off by playin o2jam... fuck... nikki is damn good... haha... eih... mun... you got a challenger D... lolx... den... don was bored... soon i was bored... den we ended up ditching nikki( i promissed her to play o2jam wid her) and... we lost that dota game.... after dat... started my dam fav... smokin all the way... till... ermh... sum 1 sounds kinda pissed larh.... after dat... fetched nikki home... but b4 that... ended up she belanja me drink some beer... and it tasted like .... ARRGH... sucky... beer these days... really bad... even ciggys....

coming 2 think about it... am i lonely??? i dont think i am.... but she says i am... lackin of a person.. whom i can talk with... but... i really can talk well with my friends... and there are few i really share my things with... but den... she told me... a person which i love... and i really trust her... again... yea... mayb thats the solution... hahaz... who will want a emo dude like me??? wonderz....

dedications...
nikki, good luck for yer accounts test... and thanks for the beer...
cheryl, thanks for caring....
cindle, happy bday... hope 2 see you soon...
billy, nice havin a fren like you...
don,(forever mentally challenged) well... good 2 have a fren like you... and hopefully you will come back to adp...

thats all i guess... sigh... emoness has been in my dictionary ever since 2 years ago... hopefully it will change soon

boring...

sigh... kena bug by nikki again.. 2 update my blog... dam lazy though... lets start from friday....

friday....
went college as usual... but onlything was i didn't drive... billy came and fetch me... some gal said she was a genius that she was able to find my house if i gave her he address... in the end... they got lost.. and i have 2 drive all the way out.. and look for them... picked vishnu up.. frm te kelana lrt station... WOW... look at his face man... we were infront of him.. and he took at least 5 seconds to realize... cut those crap... instead of attending english class.. in the end.. went dota with the ppl... and... guess what.. i waysted my time.. i shud have went 2 class.. 11a.m. we went to pyramid to catch the 300... well it was overall good larh... 3 of us went.. and wth... some fuckin retard malay kids.. cant stop talkin... i mite b a bit racist... but we kenot tahan them D larh... dam noisy... here is the poster of the movie...
ok well... after the movie.. billy fetched me home.. guess wat... jeremy left his phone in billy's car... hahaz... moment i reached home... sleep terus... lolx.. den.. woke up at 7... came online... and started talkin... 10pm.. went out... chilling in the mamak with sunshine... den sat at her house till 12.30am... god dam it... she locked the door and took the keys.. didnt let me home... sigh... reason given was my mood was very bad... yea... memang lar... was emo bout my friends... sigh... lucky i had friends like sunshine larh....

saturday...
nothin much... was just dam boring.... so i guess... dun need 2 blog about it larh...

Skipping Spree....

yea... as you see from my chat box... you will knoe tat i am going on a skipping class spree... lets see... as far as i remembered... i skipped english 6 times.... COM 1 time.... theater... 5 times... GEO 2 times...ok fuck... i am gonna die.... continue doing this... ill end up like last sem.... i really have 2 stop.... today... semangat wana go class all... den my taiko... ask... lets go dota larh... so boring... in the end... ended up in FTZ asia... dotaing with some unusual people... and got screwed... LOL... ok i am a noob in dota... i accept it... that was during my geo class larh.... den when i reached back college... semangat all wana go to theater class coz cheryl told me not 2 skip... i was like OKAY>.. den realize i havent done my review on ah steve... when i finished... fuck i dont have enough money 2 print the cover page... i am so screwed... ended up... never went 2 class.. and talked with billy in his car... den... we went racing... HAHAHA... i sorta won him.... den lost... den won... den lost again.... wtf... that fella dam lucky.... i am all blocked today... god dam it... haha... 2 mad fella driving off at LDP... SHITZ>..... k enough with the crap...

tml... my macha comin 2 stay in my house again... 3 days... den he is goin off to NS... arrgh... gonna have fun time kacau him larh... dun ask me what am i talkin... i dunno... nikki made me update my blog... and erm... finally... dont think ill be going ac tml... totally moodless.... kena con 99

camp...

i just reached home from a camp... its kinda boring... sigh... but overall... i still enjoyed it... loads of new faces today... well.. the best part is just me getting 2 spend time with sunshine... tats all... in details... i am dam freakin unlucky.... had to take care of some monkeys... in exact there are 12 of them larh.... god dam it... kids these days... cant even light a matches... wtf... cant even cook their own meal at the age of 12-15.... i was like... shit... what am i gonna do... had no choice but to cook for them... made 3 flat things made out of flour... tasted a bit like roti canai... dam proud of my self.... well cut the details... my eyes cant open... lolx... i have class tomorrow wei... dam bad... and erm to whom ever takin their spm results tomorrow... GOOD LUCK....

arrgh... having a quiz on thursday... screwed... sigh... and i havent attended my c2pid english class for 3 times ad... tomorrow though matter what i will be going... praying hard that i wont be screwed... nitez ppl....

nikki: i accept yer apology...(since you posted in yer blog... i have 2 also rite??)

some random post

ok... i dunno why i am saying this but i am doing it..... recently dunno whats wrong... every 1 seems to talk bout what girls wants and what girls needs... and the same thing goes to guys.... people have god dam problems in their relationship... and this is what i think......

GENERALLY
1) dont fucking start a relationship if you are not ready...
2) always be yourself and dont have to think bout anything extra to make them happy...
3) when there aint a prob, dont make it a prob...
4) take things slowly!!
5) sex can prolong relationships but its not necessary
6) talk things out calmly between your partner instead of going to your friends...

GIRLS
1) dont worry so much bout what guys like... they will like the most simple gift...
2) guys normally want to know every single thing bout the girl...
3) give the guy some freedom when he needs it...
4) guys are simple minded (at least most of them)
5) the dudes are more straight foward and they mean what they say at most times...

GUYS
1) dont think the extra mile when not needed...
2) dont get jelous with some hugz the gurl give to some other guys coz its just some greeting style
3) give the gurls some freedom when she needs it...
4) some times what gurls say they dont mean it...( b kful bout this)
5) no need for pressies which cost a bomb... simple and meaningful ones will do...

THINGS THAT DON'T DO!!!
1) never compare with past relationships...
2) dont presume stuff when its not true or herd by the other person
3) never lie to the other
4) expecting something out of the other
5) taking a break in a relationship


thats all i could think of.... dont take it too personal though... its just some random posts of mine....


ok... now its bout me... lol.... tomorrow i have 2 stay in college the whole god dam day.... and finally after a weak of skippin theater class i shud go... they are watching a movie tomorrow and i totally havent read about it... i guess i should search the net for the review or sumthing... after class which most prolly be 6... have to find a place for dinner... fucking MPSJ had raid pink, orange, and white... fuck.... there goes the yumcha sessions in the morning.... SUNWAY IS OFFICIALLY A DEAD ZONE!!! hmm.... this sunday... WEEEEEEEEEE CAMP!!!!! waited for a long time ad.... aahaha... meeting new ppl again.. how cool... this time the camp is at ulu yam again but its not a overnite camp... activities will be quite fun though....

today... i went ac... coz i promissed sum 1... but i actually told her that i was not going larh.... omg wei... plz plz plz dun cry... i am sorry for yer thing ... but try to work harder larh.... tell me who dosn't fail their paper in UNI when they first came in.... chillz k?? after nikki and don left... cheryl called me... her car tyre punctured... lmao... i flew from AC all the way back to my house and helpped her change her tyre.... took me bout 20 mins i guess.... din wana have lunch with brayan and her coz i din wana b lamp post!!! lolx... thats all for today

Work... BSC

ok... finally i am free to update after all my god dam midterm assignments and my darn work in BSC... lets start off with bsc work... i am supposed to work for 25 hours for my theater1000... introduction to theater... this working thing is like 25% which is alot... i get to know this fella which was also our supervisor and he is a monash uni student... we were like WOW.... he was really dam corcky when we first know him... some how b4 we left... i feel that the dude was actually very friendly larh.... nice knowing him.... the best part was if the next time he would give us a call... we would be paid 40 bucks a day if we are working for the play.... and 1 day... means 3 hours and all we have to do is ticket stubbing and ushering... aint that easy?? the play was ah steve... it was good... the best 2 parts i can remember is.... the actress whom was playing jane said... it to her brother ah steve... you think my down there keep open close open close like your mouth ah?? well just for you guys's info... this jane person is a prostitute.... the other part is when ah steve... god dam pissed with his aunty... and said... dont make me tear your cibai face i tell you.... lolx... i was sort of stunned and laughed when i watched it... overall the play was good larh...

thats bout the play larh... i worked there for 4 days with my ppls..... bermet, jenny, cheryl, youstbi, and joyce... lolx it was fun larh... and i found out sumthing... i am actually quite good in sales... made top sales for 2 days... hahaha still feeling dam proud of it... lolz.... but bermet was a better sales person than me larh... when she sells... somehow every 1 bought the script book from her.... god dam it... malaysians are really retard at times... if you dont have fucking money why go and watch a play which costs 30 bucks?? i went up to a lady... and said good evening mam... would you like to buy a programme book or a script book? she emptied her pocket and told me... no money la.... I WAS LIKE FUCK... NO 1 ASK YOU GOT MONEY ANOT.... really having a cibai face that i feel like tearing off... well the last day we actually decided to wear formal to the work place... and the pics are below

the working gang... at BSC

Us....

Box oFfice

LoOkin Up... me and Cheryl

The Only 2 members left on Emo4

My new dude... USB... youstbi

thats all i guess... its 12 am here... wana slp ad... and since i promissed some 1 to go ac tomorrow sigh... have 2 go larh... gd nite