tiredness...

ever felt tired of yer own family?? i guess every 1 does... if i am wrong.. plz let me know... i am the eldest son of the family... and also being known as the 1st person to kena bitch in the family... in simple words... it means that parents tend to expect more from the eldest son/ daughter... kanneh... i was advicing nikki sum time ago... and i am having the same prob... but i still think its standard larh... well... the least i can do is... if i would have children... i will try my best not to make them feel this way...

my brothers....
fucking retard.... they are totally opposite of me... fuckz... they should really get a life... or maybe... i have 2 change my self and adapt to them?? but i feel they are extreamly retard?? lets start off with my youngest brother... 14 this hear... he can scream like a lion/tiger... bla bla bla... during fights... but during reality.. he is a god dam coward.... guess what... he is scared of cats... fuck man.... i feel dam embarassed... each time he sees some animals by the road side... he will just make the whole family tapau home and eat... fuck this... if my mum is not here... ill slap him... i swear.... besides that... he has a similarity with my mum... throwing temper without any reasons at times... its lame larh...
another brother of mine... 16 years old... but he acts like a fucking tai ko or sumthing... kanneh... i actually told him i had a gf... last time and... the 2nd day my parents found out and i got exactly 4 hours of lecture... wont forget that.... my friends were askin me y am i not close to my brothers... its just coz they are really totally different.... infront of people, they will be angelic... i swear... you will think they are like the best brothers you can ever have... the devil will reveal man.. fuck... honestly...
bout me.... 19 this year... some emo dude.... emoin majority of the time... the dif between my brother and me is... i am sorta a middle of extrovert and introvert... both of them are totally introvert.... i think i am a mistake by my parents... and... most of the time wondering how the youngest of the family feels... i wish i had the chance larh.... i dunno my self very well honestly... mayb some of my friends could give me some comments??

today... was just a boring day i had... started the day off by getting lectured by my mum... saying that i have to fetch my brother to school and i have to wait for them... anywayz.. come on larh... if you want me to fetch you to school... at least follow my time la ok... fuck... but no... if i will follow my time... ill get scoldings... god dam it... when cheryl came... everything stopped... she was sorta my saviour larh... hopefully tomorrow everything will be ok... and what a good way to end my day... tml... have 2 fetch the 2 price to school... and fetch them back... now i am finding a god dam reason not to come home for lunch... for the sake of not fetching them... they will make me wait for 30 mins... and they will be enjoying themselves talking/chilling with their friends...

does every 1 have this prob?? or just those people whom think 2 much?? fuck it larh... i am gonna fail my theater ... really not in a god dam mood... its just a spoilt day in my life...