decissions have to be made..

first things first i have already fucked up my life this semester.. and i really have to start bucking up.. first few things i have to decide;
1) should i change course
2) getting a transport
3) whether or not to go back this summer
4) what do i really want out of taiwan

whats going on recently?
as usual doing nothing at home day dream and just thinking of unnecessary stuff. it has to come to an end already. i have came back to taiwan since February 21st and today is already 4th of may. what have i done? N-O-T-H-I-N-G besides wasting money.

it has almost been 21 years i am in this world but what have i done so far? what have i contributed to my family? again.. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. why am i all moody recently? not really the pressure from my spouse or family. its the pressure i am giving my self. worrying would i graduate, feeling bad that i am wasting my time here while my parents are actually working so hard for my education fund. b4 coming to taiwan plans of graduating in 3 years has just bcome a dream again. hopefully this time i am serious about everything and start doing the things i want instead of being influenced by others.

about her, let everything be as- kenangan terindah (samsons)
Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
selama itu pun
aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu, kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah





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