奇怪的感覺

在一起了怎麽還是覺得怪怪的？這就是我要的結果不過感覺不是很對....感覺奇怪...

今天是最後一天了，好希望你在我身邊...兩個星期沒得見面不知道一切是如何...一個月后我就回去了，那時候的一切又是如何？

感覺...

這種感覺是對的嗎？好希望...你今天和我說那句是不是真的？好疑惑...怎麽會這樣？！

好辛苦好累

why suddenly i will be so negative? why suddenly i just hope things will just end now? why suddenly i just need people to talk to? why suddenly everything seems so dark? sigh.. i am lost.. really really lost.. need some support from people around.. something i hate is i don't like people which i kinda angry with to know where are my where about. and it happened.. my feelings, my thoughts, did you ever care? did you ever bother? maybe Taiwanese thoughts are this way? i don't know.. thinking.. and thinking.. no more standing on the firm ground which i used to be.. no more firm with the decisions i made.. sigh.. where am i?

不好的感覺...很好的經驗

是怎樣？這種感覺很差！真的是這樣下去真的一切就算了...很討厭一個朋友竟然就是帶著利用..心理真的很不舒服..

昨晚第一次騎車上阿里山..雖然刺激，不過很危險...現在因該沒辦法玩什麽東西了，手受傷了...想說去阿里山閃個心結果有了這種絕句，好痛...

life is really miserable here. today the housemate left back home for Macau thanks alot bro for accompanying me last night.. good and bad experience for me... maybe next time when i am better..just feeling all the pain on my hand now sigh... people are going back one by one.. i have the same feeling too.. i have the feeling to go home.. i miss peeps in m'sia.. but there are just things i can't let go here.. dispite all this, i am still getting misunderstanding of my statement and being blamed for it..

don't know why, i just really hope this last few days before you go back to taipei you could spend it with me.. somehow it's just a weird feeling but the fact is i really do miss you alot... and this holiday will be almost 3 months.. if everything goes smoothly ill be looking for you at least 2 times a month..

how nice if you were here beside me...

let my hands free let the bird fly

is it time?

time to let things go?

forget about the past and move on to the future?

time changes everything, money cant buy time

if friends are only worth because of money, i think that's too much.


gotten a job.. bloody hell some 1 only paying me RM20 per hour to teach english.. how lame.. my petrol cost will be about that price! sigh.. so not logical.. some 1 give me some ideas? semester has end and the temptation to go back home is really really strong recently..

why i don't want to go back?

why i have those temptations?

why does this feeling seems never ending?

somehow i should listen to what Mandy S has told me.. maybe i am blinded by everything.. take a break =) yeah i think i should.. lets go on holiday..

一切可能是這樣是因爲很多感覺都很奇怪，我不喜歡朋友那麽對我，感覺是利用...很討厭很討厭..今天心情很不好不知道要和誰說...好希望有個人可以聼我的心事，好無奈...

good night people..

lies and lies..

sigh.. world full of lies..

fed up.. tired of everything..

just dam tired..

i want to leave this place..

why cant you just tell the truth?

full of lies...

so lonely so lonely..

i guess the answer is there just i am denying it.

questions and questions..

can you just tell me the conclusion?

i am really fed up and really really lazy

what are the choices left? any more alternatives?

out of all these what did i get?

where are those days that we had?

is it really those words you told me years back true?

Saw and Seen what things is. Hoping for a better future.

things just suck hard core and. i have the urge to go back despite the boring back home.

hoping to be happier and having more friends here

sleepless nights and feeling hungry sigh..

人都會犯賤，有感覺了就不要問嘛，問了就不開心...想知道的東西真的太多有些事情真的不要知道比較好...好奇想知道很不好...怎麽我和你說的事情有人會知道？好難過...是剛巧嗎？朋友給我一句話真的好感動

Mandy S says:
You're just worried that you cant predict what's happen next between you and her,after you left
you dont even feel a sense of secure ,when you;re just around
what if you're miles far away from the lady?
saw how she treated on you
when we went out for dinner
she's tryna keep some distance from you
when friends are surround

真實嗎？好想知道
bye people

想法，無奈，擔心

一個想法原來因爲自己的主意就會得罪人了，對不起...再次傷了你的心...好希望這幾天不會終止，不過明天就是星期二了...好希望你這個感覺可以爲此個3個月那我就有機會了...很多事情都感覺很無奈，怎麽了？是不是真的當局者迷？

這個是這學期的最後一周，又要分開的時候了...暑假是不是因該回去？雖然我們剛剛分開個2-3小時，我已經想念你了..每一分鐘都在想你再干嘛...好希望你都能在我身邊..

有個問題我想從新回答，我會因一個人而變，不過她一定要是值得我去改變自己..不過有些事情是不可能改變的...

只希望你開心你身體健康...

conditions?

let go those thoughts.. trust me, it will be better for you.. not denying i will have a chance that way..
besides that trust me the ending will be a good ending.. please do not think of negative things.. i beg you..

sorry for everything that i had made you unhappy.. sorry for everything that i had hurt you.. i really do love you.. please give me a chance

Understanding a statement

good lesson that i had attended.. really good 1... thanks for the lecture that you asked me to accompany you.. i learned alot.. and yes.. obviously thank you miss man for your consultation.. it did help me also =)

i only want to know 1 thing.. do you have feelings for me.. thats all i want to know.. thats all it matters.. even though you mean alot to me but if i am willing to work hard for the relationship and you don't then there is no point..

giving up at this point is just avoiding the problem.. really really hope everything would go for the better..

lost in time..

words of others influence you that much?
after so many words spoken its a total no use?
if i am wrong please correct me.. really hoping to sort things out face to face..
let me know.. let me know.. what are your thoughts..
really hoping for things to work out..
avoiding is not solving the problem.. give both of us a chance..
you remember what we spoke last night?

playing with fire..

what have i done? fire which is actually very big cant be put out by a cup of water.. so whats going on? mistakes i have made.. sorry about that.. sorry if those words hurt you badly.. it didn't exactly mean what it mean.. it was simply a word out of my mouth trying to get confirmation from you.. hope has become less and less sigh.. what is the exact problem with you pulling back?

btw... reen thanks for picking up my call 1.30am in the morning.. that really made my day.. though the advice you give i am not following.. knowing me right? i miss m'sia really really want to go back.. miss my friends.. miss my home.. sigh.. suddenly sky here is just so dark.. could some 1 hold a candle for me?

thoughts can be changed if there is a will.. don't give up so soon.. because i am not giving up..

better way?

這樣解決很好嗎？一切真的是這樣？
感覺方面或感情方面培養出來了爲什麽要有收回的感覺？還是是我自己多想？
感覺不出討論了什麽結果，爲什麽每次都這樣？是我的問題嗎？
很多話説了出去就不能收回，一句傷害你的開玩笑就能給我死了。對不起
想說的話應該都說完了...很不想回到原點，不想保留在此...
我真的對你不好嗎？
一切是我想太多嗎？
感覺真的是這樣嗎？
好無奈，好白喫...爲什麽我那麽天真？明知道自己都在猶豫了...
好難受...不要這樣的結果好不好？

everything seems so smooth recently but now.. its just some screw up... i really don't know why you will tell me that the feeling has faded or becoming less.. what has the people around you influenced you? what made you thought so? loads of questions in my mind without an answer.. answer that you cant give me.. sigh.. another relationship which is most probably going to end this way... Moody...

Loving You

thoughts come after thoughts, whats going on? maybe its because what you told me yesterday. really worried and those thoughts really made me sick.. really really do care about you.. really really do love you.. i really need the same confirmation.. gone all out hoping for some return.. but not this type of return. i am looking for a long term relationship not some relationship like this. i hate it...

想了太多太多...對自己說是我的錯讓你那麽想...真的很不因該沒控制好自己..對不起...我真的好想知道你到底怎麽想我，好想痛痛快快在所有人面前牽著你的手說我愛你...可以告訴我你的所有嗎？

Lost...

what are your thoughts?
what happened?
why you cant accept now?
what are the reasons?
where are you now?
what made you thought of those?

so many questions in my mind.. hoping you to answer me.. want to know your everything.. is that possible?

feeling lost.. feeling lonely.. feeling weird.. hate these feelings.. whats going on?

好想好想知道你的所有，可以告訴我嗎？你今天告訴我你想太多，到底怎麽了？可以把事情完全告訴我嗎？好擔心好擔心...我真的是愛你的有時候不知道怎麽表達...好無奈，一切不要這樣好嗎？

whats going on?

once again... this type of relationship.. sigh.. hate it.. confirmed today..
很重要...好擔心，不喜歡這種感覺...不想等3個月
好無奈，真的好無奈...
希望一切沒事情...
晚安

說的話...

你和我說的那番話...爲什麽？
你清醒嗎？我真的不想你不開心，好擔心...
我是怎麽作了才讓你這麽想？
好無奈，快崩潰了...好想知道你心裏到底是怎麽想的...
working hard enough for a result does not mean working in the right way..
understanding someone well enough does not mean you can control him/her
loving someone that beautiful, only thing can be done is except her everything.
好希望那些事情你真的有一個答案...

Tired..

have been thinking too much today.. no idea how would this problem of mine is going to be solved. feeling all restless everyday just hoping some miracle would happen. Am i too rush? or i am just being too paranoid? sigh.. i really don't know what to say..

i am really that all poor in talking.. am really poor in understanding people.. really frustrated with my life.. when will it end? the ending of this problem now will be me avoiding the facts.. is it my problem or yours? well i have gotten my answer.. hoping a confirmation from you. sometimes words hurt another person but it does actually make the person feel better. maybe at that particular moment the person will be all emo but the next moment after serious thoughts things will be better as the truth has been spoken. this is what i am hoping for..

being naive with the situation.. since when i am such a naive person? sigh.. every single person is growing up every moment but me? i am actually getting from bad to worst.. hopefully i have really learn my lesson this time...

because of loneliness a person would actually think more negative stuff than ever? i think i need to get my time more occupied, more meaningful. hoping for a better living.. thats all for today..

心...

真的是這樣嗎？
想后真的有少少，我會改過...
想不到我真的不是給你快樂而是一直在傷害你...
對不起，給我點時間改好不好？
脾氣不好對不起...
態度不好對不起...
大男人主義很強嗎？
想不到大家都在成長我就在哪裏落後...
好想好想有一個肯定...
好想好想一切都能快速解決...
原來造成那麽多的不愉快...對不起
我真的缺了哪顆心...我會想辦法補救...
當局者迷，原來我真的是那麽的幼稚...
好希望那天時間就在哪裏停留..
想不到我的本人反應真的那麽的慢...
所有的一切都在改變...
我一定要努力挽回一切的感覺..
對不起...sorry

once again..

changes.. i hate changes.. really hate it.. sigh.. every moment different thoughts, how could i even understand you? please enlighten me..

once again.. the same thing happened.. knowing i hate a relationship which has no confirmation...once again.. its this way... i hate it.. really really hate it...

Being Beside You..

every day.. every moment.. time passes
hoping every second of the time i would be able to spend with you
every 1 knows life is as a brief candle
praying hard the next moment you will be beside me.
loving you for who you are
accepting you for what you are
hoping you will be beside me forever.
waiting for your reply, waiting for your call
those time of awaiting is full of suffering
hoping to have the chance to hug you and never let you go.
loving you is not a coincidence, accept it..
day by day waiting for a answer that you will be with me,
suffering every moment hoping the answer will be given soon and it will be yes
working hard.. working hard... please feel my heart
I love you..

Thoughts..

every 1 has different thoughts.. and yes i cant agree more with that.. i didnt know understanding some 1 will be that hard.. i really only want the best out of you.. not hoping for any other things..

hoping for an answer.. not rushing you.. but hoping it will be soon

An Affair..

is this right or wrong?
enjoyed the moment i spent with you today but.. is this really right?
whats the relationship between us?
i can't really accept doing these stuff but there is not a relationship between us.
to me, it is better for you to have a name better than a nobody as people will say things.
maybe you don't really mind, but i do.
worried about your everything, your actions is the main factor.
am not certain about what your thoughts are.. really hoping you would tell me everything.
Loving you because of who you are, accepting everything of you, your pros and cons.
Hoping for a good ending is what i really want.
feelings could be developed during relationship.

好想我們真的是在一起，很困難嗎？
我愛你會接受你所有。
真的真的好想今天那段時間不是那麽短的，可以嗎？
好害怕，好無奈。
只想你會回答我，我願意儅你的女朋友。。。

i'm waiting for you..

waiting.....
for everything out of you
for the better, for love
time is given, till when i can wait?
words cant explain my feeling, just hoping for the answer that i have waited for a long time...
i don't know what can make you feel touched..
only words i can say is i love you with all my heart..


等待你的答案，好希望是我想到的結局
能不能成真？好希望你能有勇氣面對以前的事情，給自己一次機會。
有個男朋友很大的可能會活得比現在快樂
我只能說我愛你，希望能給你最好的一切。

Done...

一切的問題可以討論，説道明白。。
只需要一次機會來證明一切。。沒損失的。。
可以放下一次那麽多嗎？就一次
沒有什麽很大的要求，會盡量給你我能給到的最好。。

好煩，學校出了公文。不好的事情一個個接著，好傷心