100th post..

well.. its the 100th post in my blog.. took kinda a long time.. but well.. i am here...

she made my day today.. seeing her sweet smile.. i love her...
never seen her smile for a long time.. no idea why... but at least she was happy today...
i am proud to say that i am feeling happy today and at the moment i could strike out the emo word..

i extended my work in robinsons till the 13th of January and.. i really do love working there because of the crazy people on my floor... though at times its kinda boring... i learned quite alot of stuff from cleaning up the store to doing porter service for customers.. am quite happy there... and its my first time lasting in a departmental store for a month!! so proud of my self..

praying hard i will see that smile i always want to see everyday for the rest of my life... dinner time..bye ppl

monday...

its the beginning of another week.. and... its so dam boring.. went back to work today and... because of the 4 days break... i am not used to standing for this long time... my leg hurts... went for lunch with my colleagues.. i ditched them 1/2 way and lied to them that i am going to collect my pay check... sorry ppl... i actually went and see her..

i really don't understand why.. and what made her angry... her face was all black.. and didn't want to say a word.. all she know is showing me her black face and not explaining anything... i really don't understand... yesterday she was angry at me about her hard disc.. because i took it from her 2 weeks ago and i promised it to get back to her in 1 week IF my cousins are not using the computer.. and true enough.. she was angry of me like hell.. keep scolding me.. yea.. i know i am wrong... and i am really sorry... and what i said to you yesterday nite... am really sorry about that.. i was so angry till the volcano exploded on my head...

its 10pm now.. kinda tired... and really dam angry with everything... my self.. my life... and the thing i am really emo about is.... things that i cant get... AND REEN... I KNOW WHAT I WANT... LOL...

伤心，悲痛，生病

那句话都不因该改，希望越大，失望越大。。。
为什么我还是那么笨？进过了一次的失败，我不因该在放那么大的希望在感情上。。
以为她会和别人不同，原来，都是一样的。。
难道我对她不够好吗？难道我那么难和她相处吗？
是你再骗自己还是是我再骗我自己？
感觉上真的很伤心和悲痛，只能怪自己无能为力，对你不够好。
不过我干焱你对我说你对我没其他意思,我们还能继续当朋友。。
希望你别在避开我了。。。

havent been to work for 2 days ad... having fever and flu... i am really sick of everything... work,life,friends,and more... finally today i am having a little peace because my cousins went to my aunt's house for the weekend... should i go to work because i haven been to work on thurs and friday?? i need to forget about the past and move on with my life... cant bare being emo every single day..

when will be the day i can remove the emo word from my life??

far apart...

why do i feel so far apart from her when we are actually so close? i didn't treat her good enough? or i am being too nice to her? i really don't know... at times it just seems like its possible and at times it seems that theres like a 0% chance... i really don't know.. ow god... help me... i really do... i really do love her from the bottom of my heart... which part of me seems telling a lie?? i wish i could bare not talking to you for days... but i just cant... everyday i hope i get to see you.. but its impossible... and now... some how i feel you are avoiding me.. well.. if you feel me disturbing you.. just tell me... i will get out of your life.. and you will feel beta ...

today woke up late but was still early to work... met andrew.. good to know he is doing in freelance property line... and i met yap poh ling... the bitch since highschool... i cant forget her lansi face... she works at the same place as me.. but luckily she works at the ground floor... work in robinsons is getting from bad to worst... i mean its freakin boring... i hate standing there doing nothing .. came home early also today.. its like 7pm and i am home... should i say.. i am freaking lazy and feeling very boring...

i am giving up in my life.. losing the confidence that i use to have.. losing everything that i use to have.. and i really pray hard that i will lose the life that i have now... or should i say... just being emo about every single thing in my life till the point of not living has came?? hopefully there is like something cool in my life that can really cheer me up soon enough...

work work

work... really tiring lar.. today was kinda good.. but tired.. learnt a few extra stuff... and time passed really fast.... at times i feel working here is really so god dam boring... but... at most times... it is dam fun larh.. those people.. are really crazy... haha... we joke on the floor... dance... and even laughing like no 1's business... tomorrow is tuesday... and i hope it will be another fun day... eating in midvalley really costs a bomb... a meal would cost about 7-8 bucks if you are eating in those higher class place.. and it will cost like 6 bucks to eat in mamak... really wtf... so i had to tapau for the rest of my days when i am working there....if i dont... god dam... have to eat plain rice.. with loads of curry sauce... thats about my work..

my life... really stinks day by day... life really starts to bore me once again... day by day passes like it was just a minute ago... i mean.. really not enough time.. i hate my self for waysting so much time in my life... i really do... time is so precious... but yet... i dont know what i want in my life..i am 19 already... and turning 20 in like 6 months time... y do i feel so useless larh... 1st... i cant get the thing i want... and.. seriously thinking about it... maybe i didnt work hard enough or maybe i just didnt carry my self well enough...

well... its kinda late ad.. have to work tomorrow... morning shift mah... gd nite ppl

weekend at last...

finally its friday... and... yup.. i have off days on both sat and sunday... thats cool larh... i have been lazy this week.. working 1 hour short everyday... i shall be rajin again next week working all my hours and get the cash... as usual... i am dead tired.. physically.. but... mentally... still the same... emoed about every single thing.... coming to think about it.. life really sux...

few things came to my mind while working... should i start my next semester? should i continue with sunway? what should i study? i am really stucked in between of everything... my family,friends,age,work and mostly my studies... coming to think about that.. i wonder... how many friends do i really have?? lol.. tats a good question... not many...

maybe i shall just smoke my self to hell.. and dont even have to worry about anything

almost dead... or mayb dead

wow.. i just realized i havent been bloggin for a few donkey years!!... ermh... well... basically.. i am working in the gardens rite now.. in Robinsons.. today is my 7th day of work.. and its really starting to bore me... and another thing is that.. its freakin cold that you could actually cant feel your legs... the worst part of working there is the pay really stinks... RM5 an hour.. and i have to carry heavy stuff.. moving up and down.. and even carrying customer's items to their car..

i am happy that i know a few more people in my life and... yea i have a nice friend there.. indian dude... dam cool... and also the head of my department.. not bad larh... the best part.. i do have "ehem" breaks with him... but i dunno why... day by day i dont feel like going to work there anymore... mayb its too boring and there are like loads of stuff to do when sales is like NOW??

enough about my workin life... i have seriously no idea what i want now... or mayb i know.. but i just dont want to face the fact... kinda sick of my life... recently.. i realized sumthing... me and her... is a totally 0% chances of being together... well... it sux when you love that person... and you really put high hopes in it... den you just realize that it wont really work out because we are totally different?? now at this moment.. i really hope i can forget her... hopefully not by avoiding her...

and yea... my dear friend requested me to write about her... and here it goes.......
Name: Wai Mun Yee
Age: 16
Sex: Female
Outlooks: Cute(ps she made me say that)

well cut the crap.. lolx.. its 11.10pm now.. and i am going to work A shift tomorrow ... hopefully i will update soon lar... nitez

Almost dead

He has officially became the BALD & EMO- ed pig eventhough he is not bald anymore but

HE IS STILL EMO ed..gawd knows y?

XD

Kesian da blog, almost dead because the owner is so lazy to update .
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He is still alive. Yups yups. As strong as a %^&* wateva that suits da space.
Gaming everyday...! Tsk tsk tsk...




Readers !! Plz asked him or pester him to UPDATE!! PLZ

btw its Reen updating here bcaz I cant let his blog die..haha

♥ Reen

taiwan trip..

ill post the pics and details later... but what i wan to say to those ppl out there whom own a car... DON'T DRIVE SO MUCH or your pockets mite b empty!!! according to ( http://www.nanyang.com/index.php?ch=7&pg=10&ac=785089 ) our oil price will raise from RM1.92 to RM2.62 thats a 70 cents raise... OMG.... and YES 70 CENTS IS ALOT... besides that... other stuff will raise.. and that means... less yum cha sessions and going out DRIVING... mayb the best solution is using "bus 11" cheapest form of transportation and most reliable though it will take the longest time... so ppl out there... START TO USE MORE PUBLIC TRANSPORT AND do less DRIVING... OMG..!!!

boring life..

i have done nothing for the past few days besides lazing around... yum chaing.. and going to the lodge as usual... on friday... bday girl.. i am so so so sorry... suppose 2 go for a beta meal or sumthing... and doing sumthing beta... but in the end.. waited for the stupid passport for 3 hours... really sorry weh... i will bou fan sou ok?? sorry... and i owe you a bday pressie...

i think i am getting sick after drinkin the red wine my mum bought... taste kinda like ribina or how do you spell it... not nice also.. feel hot in the inside after drink.. and i dont feel anything... going to taiwan soon and i havent packed my stuff... hmm hmm.... herd its cold.. but... i guess it wont be that bad...

learnt something... don't simply say things... it mite become reality.. i mean its kinda scary la... the two of my friend's uncle had said something which was not suppose to be said and yup.. they really left the world... leaving behind their love ones..

i miss college... i wana go back to study or something... being at home.. is really boring... and.. time passes slow... arrgh... i miss my friends... well.. am tired... gd nite ppl

bday dedication

happy bday reen... you r finally 4 years old.. hahaz.. jkjk... 19...



so what are your new resolutions?? lolx... dai go lui ad.... happy bday and... all the best 2 you in your comin year...



hmm.. why ppl lidat geh... dunno is pms or wat... suddenly treat you dam good.. suddenly.. can just get angry of you for the smallest unreasonable reason?? or maybe kids are like that?? no idea larh... kinda fed up with her ad.. suddenly could keep talk 2 you loads of crap.. and the other moment she could be just angry of you for unreasonable reasons... how nice things could be...

a day...

its 6pm now.. good news and bad news... my condolences to my friend and her family... i am sorry of the lost of your uncle.. think of the bright side.. at least his body came back... and the bad news is.. 1 more of her uncle is still missing.. cheer up ok?? i may not know how you feel.. but if you need some 1 to talk to.. you can always look for me...

i woke up at 7.15 today.. because i cud not sleep.. and i am glad when i started my pc and found that there was no lag... that made a part of my day.. i managed to catch up a bit with a very good friend of mine.. sorry to hear that you are not really ok there.. but cheer up ya?? you wont want to suffer as what i am going through... miss you loads.. and really good 2 hear from you... no idea why.. but yup.. almost every time you will be the 1 cheering me up and listening to my problems.. even you are so far away from me now.. be happy alwayz... and i really hope i have the chance to visit you in aussie...

her bday is on friday.. havent got her a bday pressie... last year... sean and donovan helped me out.. this year i guess i have 2 hunt it my self.. any suggestions?? she is finally going to be 19 but still acting like she is 4?? lol.. miss her 2... havent seen her for sum time...

well... dats all for today... the last day of chanting session.. and ow yea.. any 1 interested to help out in a buddhist camp?? on november 17-21.. not sure of the venue.. but yup.. if interested let me know..

another day...

why am i pissed at every single thing?? starting from the simplest thing?? i have a feeling that every single thing is going against my way and it really sux.. today... semangat wana go SJMC visit a friend of mine.. but den.. had 2 ffk my sis because my mum spoilt the plan by comin home late... i ate my lunch at 4.30pm.. great... after that... i had to fetch a bloody fella 2 his stupid singing class which was canceled ... i mean why cant he grow up?? i fetch him because i am his brother.. NOT HIS BLOODY SLAVE... god damn it... he expect me to be there ON THE DOT... and not even a min late... while he was takin his own sweet time preparing for his things... and SHIT... HE BORROWED MY GUITAR... AND.. JUST LIKE A VANDALISM KING TRYIN 2 BREAK IT APART... that guitar has been following me for 7 years.. and it has loads of memories... when he is not happy.... he just throw the guitar... wth... GROW UP LA... asked him 2 go take his undang.. so beginning of next year he could drive... he said.. DONT WANT.. I DONT WANA BE A DRIVER.. WALAU... HE IS EXPECTING ME 2 FETCH HIM EVERY WHERE HE WANTS... WTH... he just spoilt my mood for the whole week....

at nite.. went 2 the buddhist lodge.. bcoz have 2 chant for a friend of mine as her family members went missing in the incident at pulau tioman... didn't want to go.. as was too tired.. and really moodless.. but i dragged my lazy ass there because am afraid of being nagged by my mum.. after the chanting.. my sis asked me 2 go for a movie tomorrow.. and guess wat... when she went down from the buddhist lodge... she told me she was joking... how nice... that just made my day again...

well.. the 1st thing today which actually spoilt my day was because was suppose 2 go get my passport done 2day morning.. i woke up early at like 8++ as supposing to go out that time... my brother told me my mum postponed it to tomorrow... sigh.. means.. i cant go out tomorrow!!! the day b4... which was on sunday... my friend called me for a gathering at his place... and it was actually suppose 2 be today or tomorrow.. and i agreed... i cant go because of the chanting sessions but i dont care less because my friend is seriously in need of help..

i had a good sunday and a good monday morning... and after that till this moment.. i have a screwed up life and seriously wanting just to go some where and do things that i want... i dont wish it to be long... maybe a week will do... but that will never happen.. i am still living under my mum's roof.. and i have to follow and do what ever she wants me to do even though i dont feel like doing it...

AHH... i feel much better... going off to bed now... chiaoz...

life is short

i have 2 say sorry 2 a friend of mine... for being such a ass hole.. i am so sorry... and.. i am so sorry at what happened in pulau tioman.. you lost 2 of your uncles... and i have been a bastard for jokin about that... really sorry...

people out there whom read my post... please pray for my friend and her family members.. both her uncle's are missing... and hopefully they will return home soon..


k about my life... just plain bored... i wished i was in that boat.. and... mayb i could die and not be here anymore?? life is just really being a bitch...

bored...

didnt have the time 2 update on friday.. so am doin it now.. friday... kena ffked... dulan la.. spent the day day dreaming... and playin bball with the wall... den terpaksa went to subang.. and get things done... therz this dude that i met on friday...no idea who he was... he asked me... wheter i wana shave my hair again... hmm... shud i?? anywayz.. friday... god dam it.. my brother and his gf... wth la... no eye see... really ... swt 99
dear suria... thanks 2 what you did for me .... really appreciated it.. but.. i mite have pissed you off or something.. i am sorry.. bcoz i don't even know who am i anymore.. datz why i cant explain 2 you how i feel.. really sorry..

today... sat... woke up.. at 7... was dam pissed at everything.. i decided to go release my stress by playin ball... in the end.. i broke the ring ... no idea how... just by shooting.. the ring broke.. and god dam it.. even the machine don't like me.. it ate my money when i was buyin 100+.. came home at about 12... stuffed my self with food... and i almost threw up.. aih... its happening again... no idea why... best solution.. i shudnt b alone and i shud find things to do... each time alone... or shud i say... when i have time.. i will start thinking again..

life just really stinks larh.. now i am talking 2 my pc... i dunno how 2 tell things to... anywayz here it goes... i made some 1 angry the other day.. i know i did... but i just cant control.. bcoz i was seriously dam pissed at her action... after coolin down.. i feel so stupid once again.. and.. things added up when reen ffk me.. i said sorry 2 her.. 2 times.. and she was so fed up talkin 2 me.. she just said she forgive me.. and didnt bother to talk much 2 me for 2 days ad.. last time we could talk from day till nite.. now... wana talk.. she also like angry me or something.. yea i may sound like a bloody kid or sumthing.. but thats what i feel... since i cant tell people how i feel.. i will just tell it to my pc... i really hope she will forgive me from her heart... and we can talk like last time... if cant... i will just be here...


what am i talkin about?? AHHH... GOIN CRAZY... bye...

my own life...

another dumb day just passed... usual stuff... damn stupid... how good if i can pass a day.. doing the things i want... and without any other people interrupting me? sigh.. life is just really meaningless

to you.. i received yer sms... but you know wat you said the day b4... so mayb you could actually just let me know.. what you want out of me.. i am really sick of it.. i have been giving in... till i really don't know what 2 do anymore... you just fucked me up for no reason.. and what you expect out of me??

what do i want with my life??

you don't know how i feel...

because of her.. yes YOU.... i don't know why am i so stupid.. i blame my self... and my life is just getting worst and worst daily.. why cant we just be so as we wanted?? why?? i didn't do anything wrong.. and i get scolding... i really don't know what 2 do anymore... life is really being a bitch... anywayz.. i guess.. alot of you ppl have been wandering why i am not studying.. and i gave a freakin lame reason... let me tell you ppl the truth....

i have to face with my own fears.. which i am actually trying to do so.. but.. not getting anywhere good... i am suffering from depression.. i am currently having treatment from a psychiatrist and i am under some stupid medication... some anger management pills and anti depressant pills.. i am sick of those pills... i have never liked my life since the day i am born...

lots of things that i am afraid..
1) losing my friends
2) having a bad day
3) ending up in conflicts
4) staying home and doing nothing
5) being an asshole feeling useless
6) and loads more

my life had really changed more.. when she left to aussie.. she is the only 1 i tell my things to... but yup.. too bad... she is there and i am here... recently.. she is bz with her life and i don't want to disturb her much... and... adding on to my lame life, i had a problem wid my pet sis... no idea what she is thinking.. i just feel dam stupid la...

i wana get out of my life.. i really do... i really wish there is some 1 that really can listen 2 my problems.. and that i could spend some time with appear in my life... conclusion is.. i miss her... and... 1 year is a long time... sigh....

Sadness... Stupidity

Feeling so stupid... doing something that i shouldn't have done... mayb you gotten my meaning wrongly.. but.. it does not matter now... i have learned something from you also... i should have never given so much space to a person... i am just plain stupid to forgive you again and again... but in the end... i am alwayz being the idiot standing there waiting to be fired at again...

people's heart is really unpredictable.. at the moment when they need you, they can worship you as a god.. when they don't need you.. they will just say... FUCK OFF... DONT EVEN BOTHER TO TALK TO ME... god... those ppl should really stick 2 fingers up their throat and fuck them self hard... really dam pissed off...

a person's trust and tolerance has a limit... and there is a limit to everything... if you went over the limit... i won't give 2 fucks about you... few months ago.. because of what you used my phone... in the end.. that person didn't talk 2 me till today.. haha... i am so stupid that time that i said... use all you want... WHY AM I SO STUPID??

SO .... LIFE IS BEING A BITCH... tats all i can say.. and i am STUPID enough to put so much faith and feelings into our relationship...

日子好难过

每天醒来，充满希望
但每天的希望都变成失望
有人说希望越大，失望越大！！
我每天都在等待，不过等待倒真得很不耐烦。。


my daily routine has been the same for the past months... i am just dam lazy... i miss the days i have going to college.. and hanging out with the usuals in the morning... now.. all i do is eat,sleep,pc,and nothing... arrgh... this shit really cause loads of mood swings lar.. so.. any 1 who is free... ajak me out la.. i am just dam freakin free... and i dun wana stay home.. i mite go kuku soon...



i mite b too harsh on you that day... i am sorry...
我说过，我会原谅你，那天我自己也是太过分了。。 对不起。。 希望你原谅我。。

他妈的！！！

对人好。。 不要爬到我头上来！！
每一次都顺着你的意，但越来越过分，经常爬到我头上。。
我虽都会原谅你，这次，已经太过分了！！！
你竟然吗我，你别忘了。。我再帮你做你要的东西，不是我欠你的！！
今日，你伤了我的心。。我是你哥哥，不是你的奴力。。！！
好过分！！！

爱

当初的感情到今日还是没变
人一天比天长大，不过得不到自己要的幸福和快乐
当日爱上了你是我人参中最美后悔过的事
以前如此，现在也如此
虽然我知是不可能的，但我还会默默地在你身旁至此以鼓励你
这句话我好久都没和人说了。。。
我爱你。
短短三个字，不过代表着很大的意思
如天天都是这么过我已很开心了
我没期望能和你在一起，不过真的很希望能和你在一起
这种感觉意在两年前消失了，如今找到，不知能不能得到
在没得到的一天，我都会默默地在你身边守候着你
因为，我爱你。。。

well.. to those who can read... good lar.. if cant.. mayb you ask me i mite tell you..

i have no idea why recently i mengila-gilakan my blog in chinese... mayb i just miss writing in chinese... and yes.. i can .. i was being a big fat liar that i cant write chinese... just i am not that good... well... kinda tired today... after a quite good movie wid reen... as others din come along... so... good nitez...

伤心的日子

为什么？到底我做错了什么？
我不明白。。

mood swing once again... life is alwayz lidat... up and down... who don't wish to be happy through out your life without sadness??

人生中的伤心

对你说一万个对不起都不可以弥补我种种的错误。。
但我对你好不是因为要弥补我的错而是因为我真的用心去对你。
放过了那个机会到今天我还是后悔。
是因为我对自己的信心还是不够。
人对我说错过了这个机会就很难会有另一个机会。


我很讨厌被人利用得很无辜。
感觉很难受。你虽利用我不过我还是觉得心甘情愿的因为你在我心目中石还站有地位的。
人可能都是这样吧！互相利用，当不能得到利益的时候得，他会和你说声拜拜。
当有利益是他会抢这儿来。好恐怖啊！！！！

现在我唯一可以和他说心事的人以出国深造了。
好可悲啊。。朋友满天下，不过好友五指都能算完！！

我的人身

我办无辜的时候不代表我是笨蛋的。。。
我那么对你不过你只是利用我。。
我那么好利用吗？我真的可以给你利益吗？
我倒觉得不是。。 可能我的心是盲的。。
对你千依百顺都无所谓。。。
有人对我说过不过我不相信。

我不知如何对你，我才会得到我心目中你对我的地步。。
谁可以告诉我应该怎么去做？

mooncake festival...

i am so lazy to move the pic again... well.. it actually runs the other way round.. but who cares laaa....
supportive kid dancing wid aunt..

my sis and KK

burning candles.. I WANA PLAY....

they were enjoying and i am observing...

during guessing the riddle... and gosh... y FY lookin at me??

some looked bored some look interested... cute kids...

2 of my cousins and my bro in the mid..

monkeys... xD

Dinner time..

FooD.... hungry??!

i know you r hungry....

they were hungry...

another 1...

=.= i told her 2 take pic.. but she go take my back when i was working..

well... for you ppl's info.. those pics are from the place i hang out every sat... love the people there... and i miss you sunshineee.... faster come back... we were celebrating mooncake festival on sat... though it was not the actual date... my job was being the assistant of organizing the games for kids and adults... turned out kinda boring in the end... i rather play than observing how they play... sigh... it was like HANDS OFF on cadles, lighters, fire.... GOD WATS MOONCAKE FESTIVAL WITHOUT THOSE?? i still prefer 2 b a kid where i can enjoy playing those stuff... haha...

anywayz.. gtg now... hopefully the next update will be soon

dien blog...

i din know wat 2 update for the month or so.. well... i decided to update now coz... there are actually ppl interested in my life??? lol... i dont know where to start off bcoz i really left out way far behind... but yup... here are some pics...

Nokia N70 music edition(my new phone)
cacated phone...


my new look with my new phone...

adding on to my CDL license
(proud.. 2 years of driving exp)

so poh that cam whored while i was driving

me and reen... not a good pic.. hopefully will take a new 1 soon

i have almost everything new in my life... and hopefully i will have a new life too... life is not just what we think it is but it is actually more important .. i have learnt something recently... when something is there... make sure you treasure it... dont let it go... if you do... dont regret... i have waysted like most of my time this 2 years doing nothing but letting go opportunities... i am really sorry to a few people that i really didn't treasure you ppl when you guys treat me good... really sorry....

hmm... serious part... i have taken a semester off from college... don't ask me why unless you think you r close enough to me.. currently missing my yum cha kakiz and a few good buddies... my life now... its like kinda in a rubbish form... everyday i wake up at like 8 or 9... get online and start gaming... till like 11 or 12 am in the nite?? i feel dam useless and i wana go out... i can't work at the moment because of some personal reason... and... there are like no one as free as a sohai like me ... well.. i really thanked those usuals whom turned up for movie last friday... hopefully we can do it again this week... datz all i guess.... tataz

moods....

pic... forced 2 wear the hairband and... looked funny wid the hairband...

tat pic was taken on D day i finished my final exams... GOD... FINALLY ITS OVER...... now the question is... will i pass my psy this time... i fuckin screwed up my cis... and i know i am gonna b in deep shit... well screw studies for the moment and enjoy the holidays i will be having...

ytd nite... went 2 a drama done by the UM buddhist society students and god... they were damn good... seriously respect them... i just realize that in alot of other buddhist centres, they claim that they were the 1 whom script their own song and they are using it... but actually... those were originated from UM's students... seriously respected them...

B4 going 2 UM, i woke up at about 11.30am and went havin lunch with billy... he is going to inti soon... arrgh.. god... so i guess this is it larh... hopefully our potluck will be there b4 he goes... after tat... went BRP... fetched my dearest sis... and... went finish up my mum's food... god... holidays just started... and i felt like my tummy went bigger wei... anywayz... den went OU... and searched for sweets shop and... yup... bought RM22.73 worth of sweets and... after tat went to MCD and bought 3 packets of fries and started eating... btw there is a new stall in OU which sells a set of burgers at RM24 OMG WEI.... WHO THE HACK CAN AFFORD....

2day... a girl... a kid... just fuckin pissed me off... TMD... grow up la... just bcoz you are not physically fit... must you fuckin make yer self the burden of every other fuckin person? GET A LIFE WEI... i mean.. i have been tolerating for a fucking long time... till what she said... NIA MA DE... LIKE I AM THE FUCKING 1 WHOM MAKE YOU... if i was that free..... I WOULD HAVE FUCKIN DUMP YOU IN THE SEA AND FEED YOU 2 D SHARKS.... SO FUCKIN GET A LIFE... AND IF I DIN FUCKIN CURSE AT YOU... DUN FUCKIN CALL ME A BITCH AND A BASTARD... SO FUCK OFF!!!!

sry bout D cursing... just damn pissed off... this really proves i really need anger management and... that kid seriously need 2 get a life... i better stop here b4 i screw every 1 up... bye...

presentation

today was the psychology presentation and yea... as usual.. i suck in it... luckily i have cheryl and bayo... they were good... and i really have to thank them alot for this presentation... bcoz i honestly didnt really spend time on it at all... thanks guys... and... i didnt really presented the presentation... i just stood there and they were doing the job... so you guys could actually say i am getting free marks.... so i will have to make up to them by doing the report which is 10% of our presentation marks... its 6.35pm and i am so dam tired.... slept at about 3 ytd... and woke up at 6.15 started to get ready for the presentation... first by my hair... den my shirt den the coat... and guess what.. the moment the usual people see me in mamak... they gave me the WTF look... they said... i look like a pimp or sumthing...

only took a pic wid cheryl... i seriously owe her loads and... she is my best fren in college... she helped me alot for this 2 semesters.

me and her relaxing b4 presentation

yea finally we are done with the presentation and next to go will be the final exams... GOD.... 24th... i am having my both papers... so wish me luck larh...

farewell... and updates...

yea i know i have not been updating for a freakin long time.. but yup... i am doin it rite now... first off... ermh... the pics from D farewell party of suria... she just left for 1 week... and... kinda missed her... and yea... centre is really dif without her...

look... how heavy is her... it took 5 ppl to dump her into the pool

after been dump... still feeling proud.. hahaz...

cake...
this cute baby added some farewell tea in the bon voyage cake in D centre
performance by bettey.. and my dear sis holding the book for her...

k tat was the party b4... and yea... here are the pics taken in KLIA...

me and suria... hmm... 1 year... wishing her all D best from where i am...

jen and me...

owh.. lorence.. i know shez hot... but.. shez in aussie!!! hahaz..

ppl who sent jen off...

well... these are the pics... erm first... i have 2 say sorry 2 sheau teng... erm.. kinda kena tipued by me.. and thanks alot for temaning me 2 KLIA that day.. erm... i dun have much comments bout what was goin on that day.. but... the surprized thing was... i bumped into elsie... in KLIA instead of college... hahaz...

ok... erm back 2 my life... kinda miss the times i had wid SF... erm.. talkin 2 her was D main part... sigh... hopefully when she is back ill be here... my heng dai is back from taiwan.. and this time.. i mite actually go to taiwan with both of them... i havent spoke 2 my mum.. but ... i think its a better way... living cost there inclusive of my uni fees... is only 22K a year... and i will finish my degree with just exactly 100k... well i must be serious about it this time... hopefully ill get an answer soon...

farewell.. my fren...

ytd.. was the farewell party... sigh... i am gonna see you for 1 more time this year... and thats during the day you are leaving for aussie... hopefully my dear friend sean could help you as much as he could when you are there... gonna miss you loads....

the party...
started off by me being a driver(as usual)... going down 2 kepong 2 fetch my dear mei mei fang yu( tats coz she called me kor kor) erm.... den fetching jeannie's fei fei... and finally ended up in my house stonning for hours.. aikz... 2 sakaiz in my house... both good frenz... erm.. they look good 4 each other though... 1 fat... and 1 thin... 1 cute.. and 1 not so cute... hahaz... the thing which made me say that is bcoz... fang yu's father... said something so god dam wrong on sat... lolx... here it goes.... her dad... stared at jun yi... and said.... i am making you responsible for my daughter... and take care of her... every 1 was like OMG..... LOL LAAAA... hahaz... so yup.... anywayz... 4pm.. we went and play badminton and... god.. jun yi.. you suck wei.... i havent played for years and i still beat you...

went home and bath... den went back.. 6pm.. people started to come.. well cut the crap... jumpin all D way after dinner... omg... baloon fight.. suria... i hope what you kena... i dun kena on the day i am leaving... and hopefully i will leave 1 day... erm...the best part was... me dumping you in D pool... will never forget that... and you also... anywayz... every 1 was happy larh... sadly... i wonder who took the pics that can actually send 2 me... sigh sigh... anywayz.. got assignment 2 b done... bb ppl

hate...

i hate my self for giving up so fast, mayb its just bcoz i lost the confidence in my self... the last time was lidat... this time also lidat... i mean each time.. when i almost fall for a person deeply.. i will actually just pull my self out... reason?? i dont want the same thing which happened years ago to happen again... as i said... i lost confidence in my self...

i have been talkin 2 sheau teng for like 3 days in a row... and... i learned sumthing... but.. its really hard to take the first step lar... she told me... b4 dating him... she actually made up her mind not havin another guy in her life bcoz guys are being assholes... well.. to a certain extent i do agree with her lar... but.. normally guys are lidat right?? mayb... the EGO.. is just too strong...

its easy to fall for the same girl twice... and its really hard to pull out of it... mayb.. i just dont know what i want... and so on... b4 i fall into the love sea again.. i will actually just pull my self out of it.. and forget about everything... so i guess... my resolution of getting a gf wont really work out lar... or shud i say... i memang faithed to become a monk??

emo... i hate my self for being emo... thinking about you... you are leaving and... i will be here... i depend too much on you till i have actually lost track of what to do during the times without you... talking to others wont make me feel comfortable... its maybe... i dont give them the same level of trust as i give you.... maybe you are just a special 1... that really have alot of similarity with me... and.. most of the time the problems that i told you... it will be solved and... you will actually understand what is going on....

i seriously hate my self.... i really need to snap out of what happen few years ago... or mayb... just mayb.. i found the right 1... but... i just dont know how to express my self.. and just decided to pull out... or mayb i am just like a extra living thing in the world... that people dont need... sigh....

WooT!!

guess wat... mid term exams are like... in exactly 12 hours... and i am sitting down with my radio on... my books beside me... my phone on top of it and... blogging... i feel like talking to some 1... but i dont know who can i talk to larh... so mayb ill just blog about it...

my psychology is kinda a screwed up.. god... i wonder how this girl.. esther... scored 5 for both quiz and 5 for her worksheet... and wat i get... is... 5/4/4... 5 and 4 for my quiz... and my worksheet ... bcoz of my stupidity that i din put the hypothesis in.. i lost 1 mark.... so my current standing is actually 13/15... way way way better than what i did the last time... i am actually targetting for an A this time.. and hopefully it will give a boost to my CGPA...

CIS... boring 2 D max class... i mean... its kinda stupid... but the man is cool... he gives open book test... which i actually missed 1... because of the terrible jam on friday... i left my house at 8.30am... and at 9.45 i was only at KELANA JAYA LRT STATION.... immagine that.... normally it will only take like 5-8 mins.... GOD.... i gave up going to college that day.... and ended up... spending my time with the usual kakis... and... most importantly sunshine...

i found out sumthing new... wonder who told me... but yea... breakin up season has once again arrived... few people that i am actually close with having some relationship problems and... guess wat... this girl... that i went after her.. last year... when i was still in a-levels has actually just got together with adam... and ... they just broke up... she was like end of the world or sumthing... so i temaned her for the past 2 days larh... 2day... finally see her smile... and... happy lar...

anywayz... 4th of july is almost here.... 1 more week to be exact... arrgh... the emoness will be in the air... nothing much 2 blog about... erm... just gonna say... those who broke up... dont be sad... just move on... and... learn from the mistakes and dont repeat it again...( who am i to say that... swt... i cant even forget what happened few years ago) anywayz... i shud go back 2 my studies... wish me luck ppl...

plans ahead.... sigh....

aih... really really sad recently... mayb its just bcoz she is leaving to aussie in less than 2 weeks... i am seriously gonna miss her ALOT.... recently we had a big fight... finally everything is over... but.. somehow... i felt like i lost her... mayb she is leaving and i am thinking too much... and yea... she gave me a bday pressie dat day... something special... really really special.. i mean... who does this kind of stuff for me?? only her... those memories we had... and the happiness that we had... are just... unforgettable.. alot of stuff that i can actually play with her that i cant play with alot of other people... mayb me and her are just the same category of people... sakai...

us... 2006 camp in penang...

this is the only pic that i have left with her... others are gone when i formatted my pc.. sigh... 4/7 is the day she is leaving... i wonder how am i gonna take it... even now... i am feeling that a good friend will just leave me lidat... a bit sad larh... she is the only 1 i tell my problems to.... and her advices really helps me... all i can say... she has already carved her identity in my heart that i will remember her forever... k tats enough b4 i start crying...

a happy thing... but wont last long is my heng dai comin back from taiwan... aih aih... that sei zai really too much... really know how to chose the date comin back.... 4/7 flight arive at KLIA 11.00pm LOLX.... same day that she is leaving to aussie... missed him loads also... but den... i am gonna kena 99 larh... when he comes back... chamz.. alot of days out and that also means less money!!!! OMG....

taken 2006... bkt tinggi trip
hell i look fat in that pic... shit....

hahaz.. wei jiet is comin back... weeee.... hopefully we will have a good time b4 he goes back to taiwan larh... anywayz.. goin to D centre ad... byez

stress...

wahz... stress wei... as i am blogging... my stupid midterm exams are next week... people are having their final exams and i will be having my mid term exams... hopefully i will do well... sigh... currently.. screwed up my CIS 1st quiz... nasib... its a 1 mark shit... but yea.. his stuff are accumulative... just handed up my psyco assignment today... and praying hard to get 5/5... as i got 5/5 for my 1st quiz... tomorrow will b psyco's 2nd quiz... and... guess what.. i found out that i suck in biology.. omg larh... chapter 3 is stuff doing with brains... god dam it... i dun know shit...

anywayz... enjoy yer holidays to those whom finished their final exams... hahaz... hopefully you guys will come teman me in college once a while... god... dam boring wei... starting tomorrow i will b the only 1 going to college and stone alone in the morning...

i am stressed out... arrgh... i have to prepare for my psychology presentation stuff... as i said.. i wana score an A for my psyco paper... well... dont have much time to blog... ill do it asap...

a good start...

today.. i am proud to say... i did my best... though i din get the results that i want... but yea... i got 9/10 of my psychology 1st quiz... tats if i am not mistaken larh... well... compared to my 1st time taking psyco... i am getting 1-2/10 lol... the commitment that i made... has really gonna happen.. it will be my final chance... and no more chance will be given...

smoking... a bad habbit... who am i to say this?? god... 2 packs... i have to cut down... last week.. i am taking like quite bad... 1 pack... now... i limit my self to 5 sticks 1 day... i am dam serious i have to quit this time.... i mean.. i have been saying since dunno when.. but things seems to get from bad to worst...

last week.. a friend of mine intro me a girl from MUFY... and.. yup.. she quite cute... but den.. when she knows that i smoke.. or shud i say.. she saw me smoking... den.. she didnt want to talk 2 me again... sigh... well.. its cool larh.. i dont even like her personality also... den came another girl.. elsie... aih... i suddenly... felt like stopping to smoke.. den ask her to motivate me... she was my junior from high school.. aih... now she dun wana talk 2 me after i told her... aduh...

really should quit... and i will do it... i really gonna mean it this time

a comitment...

finally... the problem is being taled to.. and talked about... i made a new commitment with my mum... and.. i am really gonna do it this time... its like a do or die thing... i screwed up most of my life... and... yea... i had made my first step... this is my first... and only time i am gonna make a commitment this way... this is what i told my mum... i am not gonna screw up my sem... hopefully getting good grades... all i can do now.. is work harder den b4... and trying my best to get the grades that i need...
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ok i really have to bitch about something... i mean... it really has been getting in my nerves but i just cant tell her... because she is my mum... aih... have she even thought about it?? how do i feel?? what do i think?? i mean... i no longer feel like a part of the family... the way she treats me and the way she treats my siblings... haih... mayb she thinks its fair.. but from what i see... its totally dif... i mean.. imagine.. loads of things that i can compare with my bro

1) i BOUGHT my own phone when i was 14... PAYING my OWN bills...
my brother's phone was bought by my mum.. and he is using a post paid line... RM 120 is what he spent... and all he got was a lil scolding

2) results... during highschool... each time i screw up a subject.. as in 50++ 60 marks... i get extra attention... she brings me to the principal's office.. and start making me talk... haih... and my brother... if he gets those result.. she would just say... try harder next time...

3) dining table.. they crap and all... yea... she laughes at the lamest jokes my siblings makes... and... where i am?? always feeling lost... all she does... is complaining me to myself.. and complaining her life to me.. yea i mean as the oldest son in the family.. yea i shud listen... i have never grumbled about that till today.. i feel so unfairly treated...

i just finish a lil chat with my mum.. and yea... all she did was nagged and scolded me... she asked me again what i want to do... i mean i dont really have the guts to tell her what i really want out of her... but... here it goes...

1) i hope she starts caring me as much as she does for my brother(not that important though)
2) equal treatment
3) i hope she can understand what i am going through instead of just screwing my life up...
4) i am a very emotional person... and i hate it... but as my mum.. you shud live with it...

i may sound like a bitch but.. tats what i really want to say... i told her yea.. i skipped my class.. yea i know i am wrong.. and its not a excuse... but did she even bother thinking where i went? what i did?? hah... no... well i can tell you guys why i skip my class... you guys mite hate me for this.. but.. i hate my life more....

1) i feel better around my friends than my family...
2) i trust my friend more than my family...
3) i cant talk to my mum as well as i talk you you ppl...

so basically.. i am depending loads on my friends... i really feel stupid by saying this but... yea... i really do depend more on my friends than my family...

how am i feeling??
1) frustrated with my family that i cant depend on
2) pissed off at my self bcoz i screwed up my results

yea.. i have a low self esteem... mayb i am born with 1??
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i have really terrible mood recently... and... yea... dont mention about sleepless nights.. which just made my headache worse... i really hate it.. recently i have been wondering.. am i the same with every other single human in the world?? i really dont know the answer to that... but... i really hope i will get that answer soon... i mean i am like a balloon filled with air.. and a lil more will just make it explode...

thats all i guess..

shez leaving...

she is leaving... times that i have spend with her for the past few years will really be a memorable one.. aussie is her destination.. i really do wana follow you there but i really cant.. sorry... the only thing i can say is i will try my best and make it to KLIA during your departure... sigh.. hopefully i wont be in tears.. its like... after you leave... i really dont know who i can talk to when i am really down and when i really need support from people.. my problems.. who could understand?? many dont... but you... helped me alot at most times... only thing i can say is i am gonna miss you alot...

like i told you... i really cant find any 1 to replace you... i mean the feelings lar... who would actually be another you?? beside you... i can do anything i like... and i wont even bother what others think...people mite think what we did was childish... but to me.. and i am sure you 2... it was pure fun... friends in college... friends in high school... if they would actually say they wont bother and could actually play along such sakai things.. i will actually respect them... hah....

a friend since childhood .... till today... years has passed.... friendship getting closer... and hopefully nothing will change... those memories we had.... irreplaceable ... agree mah?? i know you will always b there for me when ever i need you.. and i will do the same too... hopefully our friendship will never end...
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sigh... damn emo... 3rd of july is just getting close... she is almost ready to go... some 1 special to me and means alot to me... she said of gettin a PR in aussie... i personally hope she does not.. coz i still wana see her back home... i am heading to us... but my mum wants me to go aussie... Adelaide... hopefully ill make it there... its near her also... she was askin me to get some 1 to replace her when she is gone... who could?? hah... i am wondering... currently i dont think any 1 can... hopefully some 1 would... or even better... hopefully i will get a gf who actually can replace her...

1 year... she will be in aussie ill be here... back home... waiting for her....
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i have a very bad headache... soo bad that i really have to sleep when i have it.. there is 1 way that i can actually cure it... but it will b alot of pain... honestly.. i am scared lar.. the doc... said no need to shave bald if i dun wan but the best is i will lar... so i havent really decided... hopefully everything will be fine lar...

random post..

i suddenly felt like blogging... so... here it is... some dam random post... its sumthing about what has been going in the whole world... and adults whom are parents are 100% gonna agree with this... well.. i 100% disagree... parents knows best... to me its a bull shit.. they are not us... they dont know us 100% correct... so stop acting like you know us 100%... yes i believe that parents know us quite well but yea... most of their god dam advices are really too kolot to even exist in the 21st centuary... PS: its ad 2007... almost 2008... we have electric and we are no longer using candles... stop comparing yer days that you all were having to what we are having now... brainz plz... times change!!! maybe parents should CLICK with the latest world...

a good example of mine... my mum KEEPS my dam computer away from me bcoz i always use my pc?? keep askin us to go out and play... god... parents are the 1 whom restrict us to go out bcoz there are too many bastards out ther either rape the female or rob the rest... god... they want us to stay put... i mean... who can stay home 24/7 with just books and nothing else?? aduh... come on la... even parents them selves cant do that lar... always askin us to think in their shoes... THEY them selves shud think in our shoes first... yea yea... when a person fails his exam... to them... you never study... never pay attention in class... always go out... play computer... god... do they even like ask or check things out first?? always making assumptions... GET A LIFE....

tats a small party of it... well i wonder any 1 else out ther has the same experience as me... to my mum.... whn i use the computer... even if i am doing my assignments... = playing of games.. omg... how kolot can that be?? i was so god dam pissed that i actually said... y not you just sell off the computers or even just blow them up?? i mean... they are not being realistic larh... i am really dam fed up... no doubt without our parents we are no where... we still live under their roof... i seriously cant wait to move out of my house...

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forget the above... its just some dam random stuff... bitching bout my life... arrgh... emoness has once struk me dam hard this time... what is it??

1) life
2) life
3) life

practically emoin bout my life... i live in a family which is full of prejudice aih... i mean seriously... how i wish i was an only child at times... or... i could even have a more understanding siblings... and i seriously wished i had a sister.... i mean i always wanted either a older or a younger sis... preferably a older 1... lolx... so i can actually tell her my problem.. and see what advice she can give me.. whats up with the mind of my family members or i am the problematic 1 in the family?? i have no idea... i mean its like i am an outsider at home... feels stupid at most times and they could actually laugh at the lamest jokes... how i wish... time would be on my hands... and i could chose when i want the time to be there... hah... i bet every 1 agrees to this...

i am really caught up with the packs... and sticks... god.. its like turning from bad to worst... even worst when i start emoing... haih... my allowance is limited and i spent like almost 40 bucks last week buying packs... i need to stop... but... somehow... that brought me to my own world ... stone... i could ignore everything... but that does not make me high or anythin... so its bull shit if ppl say that could relieve stress.... but it does allow you to tag along with others...

i suddenly thought of making a resolution...
1) move out of my house asap...
- either stayin in sunway hostel or a house near there
- or mayb moving to inti nilai after this sem
- score well and go overseas ASAP
2) get a girlfriend
- i mean i really need some 1 to talk to at times... but i hardly find any 1
- lost those feelings since what happened 2 years ago...
3) change my attitude
- i am just a lazy bum to do most stuff... but at least i do my assignments...
- stop skipping my classes...

well thats what i could think of for now... haih... hopefully i will be able to success at least 2 and 3... and i extremely hope the 1st 1 could be achieved.. but it is quite hard lar... i asked b4 a year ago... and i am still staying at home...


thats all i guess.... i wont be online for sometime as my dam brothers is gonna start their school tomorrow... as usual... my dam computers in my dam house will be locked up... and the worst part is... all my assignments must be finished in college if i need the computer...

well i need a advice from you readers... shud i drop my LAN this sem?? currently taking general psyco and computer science... plz sms me or leave a message... i really need to know... tats all... chiaoz

Update...

lolx... sorry cheryl... bout the pic i promised... here they are... the story and the pics...thnaks to billy ching for the pics... and still waiting for chee hoe to send me the other part of the pics...


at first... thanks to those whom have turned up for the party... it was quite a good time that we had... again... i hope there will be another 1 before every 1 going to their own path... ppl of sunway... every 1 going their own ways... some monash.. some going to us soon... some UK... some... aussie... so... time left that we will spend with each other are limited... worst comes to worst in the end we mite not even remember each other... lolx...

5 gay louz... me, billy, vishnu, chee hoe and weng hoe... 5 of us left PJ at about 3 in the afternoon thanks to our keling tai lou ... abang vishnu... aduhai... wat la... waited for him since 11am in D morning... god dam it... where was he?? at first... we tot he ad hilang... den... suddenly b4 we entered sg buluh toll.. he called... den ok larh... we went and fetch him... and... guess wat... he was having fun with his gf... tats y he was late... well... dude.. i am sorry for you also... gf went aussie... chillz k... journey to bkt beruntung was really a big mess... 2 cars... 5 fellerz... god... chee hoe... if you ever read this... PLZ..... DRIVE CAREFULLY... god... almost met into 2 accidents in 5 mins... was seriously dam dangerous... in highway lagi...

reached ther about 3.30... den started cleaning the house which was full of dust, bird shit, insect shit and insect body... finish cleaning the mess at about 5++ den chee hoe was making a fuss to go swim... god... no girls... swim wat la.. show yer body meh.. lolx... raining summor... crazy... sekali kena shock... lagi chun... when we finished... went to a chinese stall and bought ice... and had some food... 2 hungry ad... waited for the dau gei zai... jackson... he came wid extra stuff.... 12 cans of tiger beer... lap top... red wine... a pack of dunhil and him self.. lolx... so in the end... what we have was....

bunch of junk.... and a bat....


US and the stuff without billy and adam...


no idea what chee hoe is doing...

process of checking his ID...

look at the amount of ciggy packs... god dam it... we finished everything between the night... 7 of us... all guys... what happened to all the girls?? i learnt that jackson.. was being a bitch... dun wana wait for jen... but... sigh... jen... dun complain la... jackson came about 6++ almost 7... after taking a long way from rawang... smart ass... lolx... den adam called... so... we waited for him.. till almost 9... without food.. just ciggy and beers... god... vishnu really tryin 2 get me drunk or sumthing... any 1 herd of bottoms up beer?? vishnu made me do it... and... he cant walk properly after that... LOL... my house turned into a mini club... with 7 fella.. BILLY... was being the bouncer holding that stick.... lol... and den.... vishnu was found as an illigal immigrant from( who knows wher) and so....

GET OUT!!! lolx..

when adam came.... SHIT... YOU EAT PORK.... and you TAPAU ALL D pork ballz... shit wei... lolx... not really full that night... but... yea as long as we did enjoy larh... sadly... the initial people whom wanted to go... most of them didnt turned up... aih... adam had no choice and had to leave us at 11++... sad wei... the fun just started when the chivas started... shit.. those people really all the way out gonna get me and chee hoe drunk... omg wei... their chivas was like 1/4 and ours was like 1/2 aduh... after the pure chivas drink... bb adam... he went back.... after a moment... we got pissed at vishnu coz he made us wait so dam long... LOL... flaming chivas... 1st 1 down... was not much a prob for him... he continued dotain... and den... after 5 mins... another flaming chivas... he was dam high... LOL... sat ther... and didnt move at all... hahaha....

after the 2nd cup... tats like about 2am in the morning... we were all cocking outside the house and... jackson had to leave... sigh... pity... he was dam dam dam dam dam high ad... when he got home.. he sent a sms... and dunno wat he sent alo... conclusion... he was drunk... hah... we chilled and crapped... in that process... i lost my voice... hahah...... 4am... every 1 was half dead... in the sense of the eyes barely can open... our dear vishnu... was being a hero... didnt sleep... dotaed all the way till we wake up in the morning at 10am... too extreme.. lolx...

was a bit hanged over after that nite... b4 leaving bkt beruntung... we had breakfast in some kopitiam... they are 1 kiam siap ppl... lol... not 2 say we dun pay larh... sigh... we left at about 12pm... i had to send billy home and drop shereen's file for her... hah... dam funny... billy used my phone and called reen... and said... i miss you... i want you... where are you... i was laughing my ass off while reen was saying... you drunk ad is it... lolx... dam cute la she... i didnt know that my voice and billy's voice got no diffrence... or mayb our theory about shereen just proved it correct?? physically age= 18++ mentally age= ?? about 3-5??? lolx....

tats about the party larh.... results... finally dead... my mum actually know about my results from the start... i even tried covering it up... but... 2 bad.. havent really talked to her about it... but... i hope everything wil be ok... i mean... yea i really wana study... but... sigh... i cant... maybe skipping of class is really getting out of hand... i swear i will stop...

a special thanks to cheryl... for being there for me when i was so god dam emo for the past few days... and for helping me out with some illegal stuff that i shudnt have done at the first place.... another is to reen... thanks for listening... it helped larh... was so pissed 2day that i didnt know what to talk... enough craps i guess... thanks for reading...

update.... 19th bday celebration wid CH

firstly... dedication to chee hoe.. a.k.a cheese... happy belated bday... this year... we celebrated together in my bangalow house in bkt beruntung... quite fun... we took a bit of time to plan this out but in D end... ppl FFK... aikz.. well.. nvm larh... REEN... thanks 4 yer bday pressie.... to me... things are not important... i prefer you guys hanging out wid me instead of giving me bday pressies... coz the time spent with each other are really limited... after we leave college which is currently SUNWAY UNI COLLEGE... every 1 will go their own path... we mite not even remember each other after this... who knows.!!

again... thanks to chee hoe... the party was quite a success though the number was small... the 7 ppl were... chee hoe, weng hoe, adam, jackson, billy, vishnu, and me...... food were bought by him and the soup was boild by his mum... thanks bro... and... really sorry i forgotten to bring my part of D stuff... sorry.... though those stuff were important.... the add on's to the stuff were from jackson... 12 cans of tiger beer(PS: it taste kinda lousy), red wine( we didnt drink it in D end... coz there were no girls)...

well.. ill update more about it on my next post with the pictures when chee hoe sends me... i only have a small part of it from billy... and... adam... i forgot 2 take pic with you... swt... sorry bro... mayb next time... thats all for now... i have to go college tomorrow...

next post will b the pics and details about the party... and stuff bout my results...

back from holiday...

i am finally back... hmm hmm... lets see... ill start off wid my trip.... hell it was boring... i had 2 spend time with my cousins... takin care of them... they have the size of a giant... but a mental age as a kid.. at the age of 14... my cousin is at 196CM... and the other at the age of 15... 182CM... wtf... crazy bunch of fools... i feel so god damn short around them... only thing i enjoyed in thailand was... the freakin swimming pool 3 meters deep.. just nice 4 me to dive.. beat this... my dam cousin... took 8 bowl of rice... WHAT THE HELL...... i cant even finish 2 bowl... and the feller 8 bowl... omg.... aikz... in the whole trip.. not much of D mood 2 talk bout D trip...

sunway's next sem starts next monday... 4th of june... FUCK.... i havent told shit 2 my mum... god dam it... this sat.... is my party... arrgh... y i have 2 worry so much of this shit during my bday... god...... i am seriously scared larh now...

another survey... tagged by my cousin...

Tagged by my cousin...


NO LYING!!

Do you have the following in your room:

Condoms:nope

Cell phone:yup

Chair/stool:yea.. infront of D window

Book shelf:yup.. loads of books that i dont read

Dresser:nop

Computer:hopefully soon

Bean bag:I wish

Pictures:too many...

Mirror: in D toilet... does it count??

Skateboard: nope

Bed: i sleep on my bed...

Clothes on the floor: when i am in a rush...

Surfboard: nope...

Smoke detector: hopefully no....

Piano/keyboard/guitar/bass/drums: yup

Locking door: yup.. 1/2 worn out...

Bottle of water: yea...

A blacklight: nope

Medals/ribbons: yup...

Awards: yup

Sport accessories: yea... table tennis bat...

CDs: loads....

Flag: dont remember....

stop sign/any sign: yea... 1... with my name on it...

Caution tape: ermh... nop

Paintball: i wish...

Real Gun: i wish more...

Cigarettes: yup

Candle: yup

Books: school books? college txt??

Nintendo: nope

Play Station: nope

Xbox: nope

Stereo: had 1... but now its in my brothers room...

Television: nope

Lighter: i smoke... of coz...

Gum: nope

How many windows do you have in ur
room?: 5 including 2 in D toilet

What is the color of your walls?:
white

Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet?
parquet

What color is your bed?
i DO change my bed sheet every week... god... currently its blue...

what is on ur walls?
a poster, lights

Has the opposite sex been in your room
before?
yea... of coz...

Tagg 5 ppl
1) Nikki
2) Shereen
3) Cheryl
4) Jen
5) Mr. Pussy

dooms day...

the day i had been avoiding for exactly 1 week has finally came... tomorrow... i must go to college... and take my dam results to show my mum... i am officially doomed... what should i tell my mum?? y did i screw up my exams?? i really dont understand till today... my current standings b4 the exams were good... besides i know that i didnt did badly for my final exam... i dont know how!! my results were...

English 1050---- C( thank god i passed i skipped it like a dozen of times)
Com 1700------ D( b4 exams it was at 47/60)
Geo 1000------ D( b4 exams it was at 42/60)
Theater 1000--- E( expected... kinda screwed up my mid term...)

solution... i came up with it because i know i cant study in sunway anymore... shud i say i am a failure?? i cant study... but... in future... without a degree... what is life?? should i continue with my psychology degree?? i mean it is really the thing that i want... b4 i came 2 adp .. i thought of becoming a lawyer/psychologist/ pilot... well... law is totally out... i am only left with piloting and psyco... i want to change college... mayb there are 2 many distractions in sunway... well... my next target is changing college... most probably inti... with billy... i need a new start... and i cant screw up this time...

about how things go... if i have the luck to post it up here... den good lar.... hopefully i have the chance... wish me luck...

sat... ill b going to thailand wid my family... arrgh... i dun wana go... kinda wayste time... i mean i'd rather chill with my friends den going there... summore... aiyo... sure my mum gonna have black face all D way... k larh... gd nite ppl

tagg... you R in....

Tagged by BabyNikki...

Layer One: On The Outside
Name: Chin Wai Xiang
Birth Date: 30th May 1988
Current status: Single..unwanted XD
Eye Colour: Dark brown
Hair Colour: black
Righty or Lefty: Righty


Layer Two: On The Inside
Your Fears: being ignored and feeling lonely
Your Weakness: lazy....
Your Perfect Pizza: pepperoni


Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: How to get out of D house....
Your Bedtime: 11.30pm... but... alwayz sms on bed till 2-3am...
Your Most Missed Memory: spitting pop corns off 1U wid my besties....

Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McDs..Friez baby....
Single or Group Dates: hmm..both?
Adidas or Nike: both if they were free...
Tea or Nestea: Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate!
Cappucino or Coffee: i hate them...

Layer Five: Do You...
Smoke: kinda do... process of stopping
Curse: i do....
Take a shower: huh... who don't??
Have a crush: guess so....
Think you've been in love: of coz...
Go to school: ermh... i am in college...
Want to get married: most probably... unless i decide 2 b a monk...
Believe in yourself: Sumtimes
Think you're a health freak: not really


Layer Six: In The Past Month
Drank alcohol: Of Coz...
Been on stage: Yup... loads of times... have stage fright though...
Eaten sushi: Yup...
Dyed your hair: i wish i could...


Layer Seven: Have You Ever...
Played A Stripping Game: yea... during high school
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: nopz


Layer Eight: Age You're Hoping
To Be Married: one day..yes..
For a: miracle to make me study..n fer sum kind soul to get me tht ManU baby polo tee


Layer Nine: In a Girl (opposite sex)
Best Eye Colour: doesnt matter..
Best Hair Colour: natural..as long as its not sum weird color..
Short Hair or Long Hair: Long....

Layer Ten: What Were You Doing
1 Min Ago: talkin 2 Shereen, Nikki and smsing sunshine....
4.5 Hours Ago: smsing... quareling wid elle....
1 Month Ago: was in the centre... as usual every sat.....
1 Year Ago: should b in the centre....


Layer Eleven: Finish The Sentence
I Love: my friends... but i love some 1 in specific most...
I Feel: stupid, lonely, lazy, failure... and all negative point that you can think of
I Hate: being alone..
I Hide: depends on who... lolx... my emotions mayb??
I Miss: HER
I Need: M O N E Y ! !

Layer Twelve: Tag Five Peoples
1) Cheryl
2) Sunshine
3) Jennifer
4) Shereen
5) Y-O-U

officially off the list...

my results are out... and i am officially doomed... i am really not into the mood 2 blog... and.... the decision i am going to make tonight... will change everything.... regarding this info... ill b updating on it as soon as i made my mind....

bored...

sigh.... holidays and borednes... match 2 D max... b4 my sem end... i tot... yes!!! i am finally having my holidays... but now.. god... save me from being at home... i didnt have the mood 2 update my blog till today... while i am totally so bored...

how am i feeling??
1) lost
2) bored
3) useless/helpless
4) dumb/stupid/retard
5) commiting suicide??
6) going out
7) left out/pushed aside
8) love sick

the word emo really suits me lar... datz all i can say... and i am freakin lifeless... 12.20am on a monday...

her.... i dunno wat 2 do... and... what my fren told me is quite true lar mayb she is not ment for me... thats all i can say... she will still b a good fren of mine... as a sayin go... you let the person go does not mean you are a coward... but you are strong enough to let the person get what he/she wants... i have 2 agree with it larh...

tml... shi fu comin from taiwan... god... it will b another day of transporting... at least it keeps me occupied lar.. hell knows what time i gonna wake up tml... and den at 2... will b going 2 LCCI to pick the shi fu up...

i miss college... the people... the environment... here it goes..

cheryl lim,
i miss her... i spend most of my time in college with her... a very good friend... hopefully everything is going out fine with her life lar... and... i seriously hope 2 see her on my birthday....

billy,
my 7.30a.m. yum cha buddy in yellow shop 5 days a week... haha... nice guy... start to miss him ad... i cant wait 2 get back 2 college... and i seriously hope he will come over to adtp also next sem... i guess it will suit him also larh...

chee hoe,
same yum cha buddy... and movie buddy... just that... i just saw him few days ago... and gonna see him this friday again most probably... i dont miss him... hahaha..... blah cheese.... so whats gonna b the movie this friday??

shereen,
miss her... lol... eventhough just saw her few days ago... all i can say is wish she will b happy... and ill alwayz b ther 4 her...

datz my usual(special ppl) buddies in college.... people from my centre...

Sunshine,
1 of my besties from young... a very very very good friend... always b ther 4 me during my ups and downs... movin 2 aussie soon... and hopefully will at least see her b4 i leave to us next year....

Brenda,
aka my pet sis... i dunno what is wrong wid her... but she is just different from others... hopefully everything will turn out well with my cousin....

Noelle,
cute lil gurl... haha.... i love her room... i wish i had a room like what she has... lolx... all i have 2 say 2 her is... dun stress out, stay cute and stay healthy... and 1 more thing... my brother aint that sexy ok....

Jun Yi,
some fei lou... i hate him at times... cant keep his mouth shut... but still a good friend.... though sumtimes really fan sei yan...

Zhong Xian,
my cousin... and also my pet sis's bf... aiyo... dont get yourself into so much trouble lar... yer mum ad called me and asked me 2 talk 2 you guys ad... i really dunno what 2 do... ( i hope he reads this but i doubt it)

well... thats about it lar.... owh.. those ppl's names whom are not ther... dont take it personally... its just some random post of mine... passing my time... i hope ill b able 2 take a few pics tomorrow.... so... thats it for now... bb